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Friday, June 26, 2009

Another week past.....
haha actually i wanted to post erm... on Sunday after the sinma banquet. but.. haha sad to say that i m too tired. i actually kept on thinking to post it but, always end up lazy... haha...

so last Friday, wanted to sleep at about 0200 plus. so talk to my senior officer while ironing my uniform because i think that it is not straight.. then he offline at about 0130 plus so found out my my old school mate online. so i talk to him.. so without looking at the time, i end up talking to him till 0400 plus... lol.. cant believe that.. so i thought i can take a small nap till 0600 to bath and settle everything before i go n meet my instructor... the sad thing is that i cant get to sleep even i m lying on my bed... haizzz.. so dint really get to close my eyes for the 2 hours.. haha

so went to food fare for breakfast.. haha although i dont feel like eating. but somehow i still manage to finish my plate.. maybe people will start saying that i m fat so i can finish my plate.. even my instructor cant finish.. lol.. so went HQ change and wait for the cadets 2 arrive, change, put their things in the lecture room, before they fall in and check their uniform, do some foot drill before going to the marina floating platform for the training.. haha. heard that they only have 2 training before the things finishes. but it will took them from 1100 to 2100.. what a long training.. lunch time, cadets enjoy their KFC haha but they ketp on complain to me that they want my share because mine is 2 big slices of pizza from pizza hut.. lol.. but try to imagine every odd weeks 2 eat the same food.. yucks.... haha you will somehow hate it ba... haha. but that side there is good food there.. haha free flow of Mr bean, Milo, ice plain water. and old Chang kee.. cant you believe it.. got so many things to eat lol.. dinner is worst.. they gt lots of baby potatoes, baby carrots, a piece of bread and a big piece of chicken meat( don't know which part??).. haha but it looks like half pieces of chicken.. damn big man.. but they still don't like it.. they keep on asking mine.. so i open my box and saw 1 piece of tau gua (with sweet and sour sauce), broccoli, and vegetarian duck meat plus yam rice.. lol.. i don't know why they wanted to eat mine but tell you the truth.. it is not that nice.. but it sure make you full until you want to vomit.. haha..

ya the 1st training, i didn't went in. due to no pass.. idiot.. why cant each group have 10 passes for the officer? so didn't get to go in lo. but i went there prepare myself, i brought my sowing kit, and started to made board for my rank, for safari.. haha. some people cant believe that i can do 1.. but too bad i done 1 prototype de (kinda ugly).. than i show them whats the special things on what i made.. so i ask them that the board that we normally put on, we cant bend it because it is made up of cupboard. but mine is made up of bendable plastic.. so when i bend it, they open their eyes big.. lol.. so around the evening, we went in for the last full dress training of the day.. haha so end up with a casualty with me haizzz. suddenly feel so sian that i need to go to the medical post.. haha.. after that saw tanks chiong into the place.. and saw how do tank do a emergency brake and drift.. haha although is because the front tank suddenly stop that result the rest hve 2 drift a bit and do a sudden brake.. haha damn nice. like you can see the tank like going to do a front flip due to suddenly brake. haha. then the parade. then at last a short about 1 km march. woa i was un prepare for it that i never tighten my boots that cause a blister on 1 leg.. lol.. then that ends that day.. very tired.. so got home about 2300 plus... bathe, on computer until 0100 plus before i K.O on my bed..

so woke up at about 0700 plus, meet my officer then went for the sinma competition.. saw their uniform (because Malaysia uniform is different from Singapore de), their foot drill and command... it is totally different.. haha to us we can say it weird for their drills, but different country have different way for commanding and drills.. haha.. so when it ends, they told me that they are going to go for the banquet. so i also feel like going to it. so i decide to call my officer. i m risking myself to get scolded but he didn't.. haha.. so i went home take my safari n go. haha gt free food there. but must work... taking temperature for all the guest.. gt MOH big shot go... then saw Singapore mess kit and Malaysia mess kit.. woa that day everyone was so smart.. haha. but wen the event starts. only 3 were left on the table . the rest disperse some where to do their job.. haha so our table is the weirdest due to 10 sit table only have 3 people on it... lol.. sianzzz some more our table looks the most messy. food and bones everywhere. bags uniform cover are just lying everywhere around the table... haha that day oso went home abt 11 plus at night.. haha... sian then the rest of the day is just sian... haha until today. started doing my board for the rank. this time it really look as if i just got it from the store.. haha damn nice..

so thats all for to day.. tomorrow CR2 will have another things to blog le ok.. haha.. so nw i mus go n iron my pants n get ready for tomorrow's training plus looking for martial art class for me and my friends.. haha. cya buai and chao.

~ { 10:11 PM }
"looked for, they cannot be seen,; listen for, they cannot be heard; felt for, they cannot be touched."------old ninja legend


Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Empty....
haha yesterday i sleep at 1am plus due to cannot sleep... lol.. today end up waking up at 6 am plus then i cannot go back to sleep.. then in my mind i keep on thinking about a lot of things.. so many things keep on going thru my mind.. suddenly i feel so empty.. it seems like there is a lot of thing i need to do but there is noting to be complete.. i don't know how to explain this but i suppose some of us would know whats going on... then i just remember quite an old song from "the click five- empty"... i really got the feelings when i listen to it.. lol.....



The Click Five - Empty

Tried to take a picture
of love
didn't think I'd miss her
that much
I want to fill this new frame
but its empty
tried to write a letter
in ink
its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
but its empty
its empty
maybe we're trying
trying too hard
maybe we're torn apart
maybe the timing
is beating our hearts
we're empty
and I've even wondered
if we
should be getting under
these sheets
we could lie in this bed
but its empty
its empty
maybe we're trying
trying too hard
maybe we're torn apart
maybe the timing
is beating our hearts
we're empty
oh oh
oh oh
oooooh
oh oh
oh oh
maybe we're trying
trying too hard
maybe we're torn apart
maybe the timing
is beating our hearts
we're empty
we're empty

~ { 8:59 AM }
"looked for, they cannot be seen,; listen for, they cannot be heard; felt for, they cannot be touched."------old ninja legend


Friday, June 12, 2009

Is balancing everything everytime will work out?.........
haha... it seems like every time i only get to blog once a week.. i might think that it is due to lack of things to talk about... or sometime, lazy, tired, sad, emo, no feeling, noting to talk about.... so on.... haha..

i think i would just talk about something that happen lo.. haha..

last sat, same thing went for NDP training there... wow.. damn sian.. but then just nice i got 2 cadets that is not feeling well pei me.. haha.. because all of the school are having either camps or things that stop them from enjoying themselves.. and due to that, headache due to too much stress, work, not enough sleep... haizz.... then when start training, they start to pei mi.. haha. first thing is because they cant attend the parade, second, they come towards me is because, i am the medic for them, plus they know that i m a nurse...( a type of nurse that is not working but then got a practising cert with me..) just nice, we talk a lot.. although i think i talk a lot... (hopefully they don't mind) because most of the time, mouth seldom open due to lack of people to talk to... even with my ah bang, marcus, only use msn, type, lol not mic...
back to topic... at first we talk plus see the parade, G.O.H open fire for the 3 respecting fire. (i might be wrong. if can, correct me. thanks)then saw mr brown, a guy which talks about Singapore news? he is quite a funny guy. and record nice podcast (I'M A FAN OF HIS!!LOL). he was there wanted to shoot some videos for his blog... he actually wanted to take some girls guides for interview, but then end up they running around, so wanted to look for some here. bt sadly to say, the cadets were being ask to fall in at the time. so left me, and the 2 girls to take care of.. so i told the cadets, believe me, he is coming after you both liao... lol. indeed, mr brown went there and took interview from them... haha. but after that, i felt that there is something wrong going to happen. mr brown went after me, grab me, and then camera start rolling.. start askin me to answer some questions... so paisei lo... lol but the heng things is that they never post the videos on his blog.. lol

durning their break, some for the cadets which have camp, they asking me, why i didn't go for their camps?.. also asking me to go their camp for their camp night.. so i was thinking that maybe i should try asking their officer to see whether i can go and take a look.. so got a chance to go lo..
when the training ends, i wanted to go home and change, but the cadets asking me to follow them and go.. so i follow them lo.. haha it sounds like i anyhow easy to follow people around de.. haha
so went with them to the school for their camp night.. haha.

so i gt there abit too early, and i saw what happen there, like flag lowering, dinner,and then campfire.. haha

so anyway some people might be thinking that what do i mean on my title.... so here's is what i m going to say. durning the camps i saw things that can be commented on, quote and praise.. is like i suddenly think of whats going on in my old schools. how are they doing now? and also, asking myself, did i do something wrong or not? it was like, i did somethings like whats happening durning their camps.. i still can't believe, whats are the reason that we can't compare my school with others?what i scold might be too hard for them to take it.. but why other schools cadets can take it? tell the truth. i really kind of miss my way of guiding the cadets to learn from mistake...

why there is some people say that every kid s0 is the same, and mus be threats the same way as what other better kids do? and there is others that doesn't?

balancing? do we need to scold cadets (which done something wrong) to the max so they will listen? or should we slowly guide them, use the "love" teaching method to teach them? to me, i tried both... and found out. the 1st one has the most effect on them. and it usually work. but beware, negative things will happen to you sooner or later. which is, either teacher, or parents scold us for using that method.. or the cadets quit (and after that, teacher will start to nag at us for scolding them too much). should i say, that is the kind of "love teaching" we wanted to give them? we, the older generation had gotten training worst then we train them now.... complain? they wanted to protect the kids. so they complain, then why there isn't much people complain about the tougher training the garhmen give for guys? things are worst then we do. why not we are training for them in the future? haha

the second 1. nice at first. but worst later. they will listen to officer which use the second method with their own will. but people tend to find out, they climb to the top of their officers head. haiz.. then at that time,when they wanna use the other method, it will b no used le. because they wont care about it liao..

haha. it seems that they never look forward...why they never find out that after we scold them, whatever things they do, they will remember in the future? but then other way, they only remember for a few days then forget. haha..there is a third way...

and the third way is to combine... the second method is only can be to use for the first few days, then the 1st method will be the later part. which means balancing. it work more then the 1st 2 method.. but the teachers don't allow. cos they only us to teach with T.L.C...and thus. they only learn for the time being... after they quit or stop the class, they will forget it, like i say "i have return all the class that i learned, back to the teachers le." so i forget..
now the question comes into my mind, should i be fierce, loving, or balance?

another thing, when you have a girlfriends for guys, do you think maintaining a balancing of forgive, forget and sometimes tell them whats right or wrong is good?
haha.. i thing there might have a bunch of people think that you should never tell them that their are wrong, it will cause a world war there.. so here comes another question.. should you balance? haha..

i wanted a balance home with my bro. but i always didn't get the balance of T.L.C from my parents. they tend to scold me more often then my bro, which always cause the most trouble. or even all the trouble is he cause de. and i m the 1 that always get scolded for him.. they say that i m the big bro. i should guide him. come on, they gt no way to help him le. do you think i can help it? i was like thinking, should parents have a balance of T.L.C to their own family that have more than 2 kids at home? haha..

so does balance help? in everything or just to a minor stuff?

yesterday, have quite abit of fun, went out with my other friends for 1st aid help out... lol.. so long never went out for the damn whole day to enjoy myself... haha.. firstly went raffles place.. to witness an event, a emergence fire evacuation exercise.. wow.. so many people frm 4o plus story come down from that building.. haha.. worst of all, wen they are out, they started scatted around to smoke.. it seems like they don't even wanted to care about the things which is going on there.. haha.. after went to SNB to do my nursing cert.. when went to that building, i found out that they shifted to NKF.... make my wasted my trip to go SGH.. lol nvm but i did went there to do my cert.. the cert is lyk onli a piece of paper with a thin piece of plastic that cover the part.. haha but then is nice la.... now my wallet looks like so gay like that.. cbecause i never believe my wallet got a nursing cert in it... feel so gay... lol... but then i m not la... haha.
after went HQ to get a ride near my house so i can have a cheaper MRT ride back home. and also see kranji turb club. cos my friend got a duty there.. sunny ask me to take a look and see the place where the horse run.. cos he told me that they only allow age 21 and above to go in there... haha so i use that time to enjoy myself there before i go home... then at there, we saw star so close. so chio... lol my friends took a photo with her. wow what a nice full day i spend wit my friends... haha. today send some instructor off for OTC camp.. sian.. gona be so lonely this 4 days le.. haha.. till now, i have been on my com playin restaruant city on face book and that all...

To the instructor in OTC.... GOOD LUCK!!!!! and to all friends and whoever that sees my blog, try listen to mr brown podcast!!! its nice... visit the link below.... thanks... tomorrow will b another NDP training le... gud luck 2 all cadets that attend!!!

www.mrbrownshow.com

~ { 6:32 PM }
"looked for, they cannot be seen,; listen for, they cannot be heard; felt for, they cannot be touched."------old ninja legend


Friday, June 5, 2009

Sorry--Buckcherry
Oh I had a lot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry baby, Yeah.
I'm sorry.

~ { 11:31 AM }
"looked for, they cannot be seen,; listen for, they cannot be heard; felt for, they cannot be touched."------old ninja legend


......
almost a week since i blog. last fri went out with gang. then watch movie at my friends house. actually wanted to go home after that show. end up goin home at 5.30am in the morning due to sum1 sleep even before the show starts.... haha

sat morning, went hq with friends again for home nursing course. end up only wen for less then an hour due to ndp training.. haha when wen there for training, i saw my old school mate which is in the commandos for this year G.O.H. alot of school mate from my batch will know who is that guy.. lol..

monday till 2 dae there isnt anyting to write about.. only wen i saw a photo,a photo that mess up my mood.
there is a thing i need to do before i go..the chance is slim.... really slim.. less then a month to complete.. should i forget... or should i not forget.....
so many things wouldnt be the same....

~ { 11:15 AM }
"looked for, they cannot be seen,; listen for, they cannot be heard; felt for, they cannot be touched."------old ninja legend