this few weeks i wont be posting due to my attachment's working time, but today i wanted clear something. whether did the person see this post or not, as long as there's ppl that knows what am i doing, i'm ok with it already.

i dont know why, nowadays i just feel that there's someone thats angry with me... i know who you are, but the thing is that i dont know what is going on.... maybe i said something wrong... or maybe i did something wrong... maybe i never declare something to you which is... if a person wants to tell me secrets, if i think there's a good way to solve or help out that person's problem, i'll risk disclosing some of the facts that i think will benefit, and i don't mind the person for hating me... because in the long run, it might be helpful for the person...

if there's anything that offend u and u decide not to forgive me, im okay with it. the only thing i can say is i'm really sorry. that's all... =/

if you know who i am talking about, then please understand what i'm trying to do...

quite a unlucky day
is a new dae new enviroment in there haha.. things are suite smooth here and there.. the ward is quite fun.. filled with alot of students.. akot of them haha.. staff oso alot haha. so it turns out 2 bt tt the ward is so bz lyk hell haha..

early in the mornin i saw tt my cp lecturer change my shift tml to morning.. n it turns out tt i nida go there tml by myself haha.. so sian lo...

is quite a normal ward there la haha..

back 2 the unlucky day.. my leg gt an skin tear due 2 pants rudding the same place over and over again... until nw there is still pain and there swelling there...

after the work.. i heard tt the other corp gt comp team trainin.. and the instructor ask mi tt if i wana go dwn n look at it, i jus go lo haha. bt then it turns out tt i tind do anyting accept tokin 2 their instructor.. heard tt 1 of them went bk bt kena kick out again due 2 his dyed hair.. bt then the ting is tt he aready grad frm tt skool le bt y still kant go back? tts quite a stupid ting tt the DM sae lo haha

nwis the ting tt i wana consider myself as quite a unlucky dae is tt i jus gt up, n wen in 2 check my mail.. n found out tt i 4gt 2 do sth.. I 4GT 2 SUMIT MY DOC 2 THE POLY WITIN 3DAYS!!! I M IN DEEP SH*T.. HAHA. tml i will ask my teacher again again till she help mi if nt i will jus have 2 go ns...

i m so unlucky 2 dae.. i jus feel lyk cryin sumtimes.. so physical stress n mentally stress.. my family.. cca ( cos they are my best hobbies n i gt 2 noe alot of gd frends there n 1 committed..) school.. friends...best of all is a psn tt i always tok alot of pbm 2 bt nv tok 2 her due 2 sum pbm.. so stress.. so pain.. so emo....

too much tings 2 do le.. sum 1 help mi if u kan... haha

yos haha.. bk again 19-1-09
haha.. i m back.. 2 dae were quite a painful day for me man.. early in the mornin i had 2 go all the way to semei for simulation training haha..
quite sian there lo... bt a gd ting 2 see all the new batch of nursing students haha.. alot.. n i kept on tinkin wen i 1st join, m i the same as them? haha..

bt wen i wen back, sth shock mi.. 1 guy frm my sec skool... frm a diff cca.. an officer nw.. shock mi.. HE IS IN NURSING OSO.. kant believe it.. hopefully he will bcum 1 very gd n top nurse haha..

a bad dae 4 mi 2 dae.. so sick.. having headach.. dman pain until wen i takin train hm.. no space for me 2 sit.. plus headach.. thus i stand n doze off at 1 of the corner haha..

as usual mitin nicholas.. tis time jus meet then go hm cos takin same train bk hm.. then i wen hm n he wen hm haha..

and cos of my headach.. i do some nappin n end up wakin up jus nw onli.. haha.. quite a stupid dae for me haha..

tml i m goin for my attachment at NUH haha.. stay tune for tmls... STORY ABT THE WARd.. Muahahahaha... i m siao le haha

18/1/09
haha yesterday i dint blog cos i m bz outside wit weiliang n nichloas.. we went jurong point... haha so many ppl there lo mostly is indians.. i m nt offending them.. is realli true.. cos i heard tt there are alot factory there, so wen they end work, they will go there 4 a shop.. it bcum a small little india there.. we went there 2 c for new clothes 4 nicholas then weiliang go play arcarde.. we tried 2 kall chia lek 2 come cos weiliang sae she wana come oso.. we kall alot of times bt then dint pick up.. bt wen we abt 2 go off, she kall n sae she is workin... dots rite haha.

bt then we did meet at cck eventualli at nite then went 2 my hse playground n listen 2 songs etc.. jus simply anyhw tok haha.. mb did tok quite alot of my cca stuff ba haha..and went hm again...

yet another boring life.. haha
2 nite i will post 4 2 dae!!!! stay tune!! haha

"Best I Ever Had"-- By 'State Of Shock'
Now I know I messed up bad
You were the best I ever had
I let you down in the worst way
It hurts me every single day
I'm dying to let you know
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend

So many things I would take back
You were the best I ever had
I don't blame you for hating me
I didn't mean to make you leave
You and I were living like a love song
I feel so bad, I feel so bad that you're gone
Now I know you're the only one that I want
I want you back, I want you

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
You were the best I ever had

We fell in love for a reason
Now you're leaving
And I just want you back
So many things we believed in
Now you're leaving and words won't bring you back
I'll never let go of the heart I broke
You and I were living like a love song
Now I know you're the only one that I want
I want you back, I want you

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
You were the best I ever had

I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were the best I ever had
I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were,You were the best I ever had

date: 17/1/09
today was quite a normal day... i met nicholas n emerson in the afternoon.. play psp at my hse then wen 2 lot 1 walk ard.. then we wen 2 the arcard then start playin till we siao.. i tink we play almost 2 hr ++. bt then we play car racin, shootin, etc. (bt i win most of it haha) bt there is 1 saying tt i m a bad luck psn haha... ( maybe is 99% true lehz)

Right b4 our last game, shihui arrives leh.... woow (i m lucky to noe a psn which gt all 1 ofr 'N' lvls n is on the news haha) so we wen for dinner. after tt nichloas went hm(ps lol jokin) so we then go mega playground ard cck and tok.. bt sth happen haha.. wen i m nt tinkin of sth sad wen we were walkin to the play ground, i saw sum1 which made mi so sad... so sad... i saw a psn which look so alike to a psn very impt 2 mi ( which nv tok 2 her le) so alike!!!! THEN SHIHUI STARTED TOKIN 2 HER!!!! I KANT BELIEVE IS HER FREN... HAHA.. then i started to emo again haha.... mb at this time i m realli unlucky lyk wad the arcard game says.. haha

at the playground, we met marcus and weiliang and play psp again.. (seems lyk we all have no life.. onli play psp everywhere we go lol) eat ice stick.. so cold haha...
after tt 1 by 1 wen hm.. marcus then shihui then emerson.. then left mi n weiliang.. so we jus left there tokin 2 our personal stuff then went hm... so nice tokin to our own stuff.. haha so nice..

Do you Believe in fate?
if you do.. jus follow it.. and it will come true..
if u dun, use ur own way.. cos it will also come true..
believe in wad you are tinkin and it will come true.. haha

......
Woa wad a great night yesterday... cos i met all the external cca instructor at cck park. then we play alot of unwanted stuff at the playground. wad do u tink playground is urs 4 wad? we started playing poker.. play songs.. play psp.. tokin etc... alot of tings jus happen that i cant explain.. fun n fun.. lol

then we went to Weiliang hse wit Jia Jie and Chia lek 4 a overnight program... after playing "hotel 626" (somhow it doesnt look so scarly as i tot), we "watch L change the world". bt during that movie show, i started slpin haha. i heard that they sae i m to loud haha.

yesterday was my last day at IMH.. it was quite fun as ii tink we had seen most of the wards there.. it was nt as scary as we tot in the 1st place... and nt as wad you guys tink as if is so dark in it n so scary.. miss that place alot.. hope 1 day i will work there

i cant believe that i still tinkin of my own external cca.. i worry so much bt no 1 noes wad m i doing.. onli Jia Jie and marcus realli noes wad m i tinkin of that school.. doin so much still gt scoldin frm alot of people.. onli wen they earn sth in eg. a compitition.etc, they will notice that "something" which had been appearing around for all the training is existing in their school. i jus cant believe they r so relistic man.. worst come to worst, yesterday 1 of them told mi about sth which i nv wanting them 2 do that b4, bt then accuse mi 4 tt. " if you dun wana go back then jus say, dun sound as if the whole corp is begging you.. wan means wan, dun wan means dun wan" she even claims that the cca is dying.. i duno hw 2 sae tt. in the 1st palce i dint even tell them 2 beg or wad.. they jus keep on comin 2 tell mi 2 go bk.. is lyk wad the hell.. i dint even ask them 2 ask mi back n nw they sae i wan them 2 beg mi go back.. please la if the school deserve us to go back.. we will go back no matter wad.. marcus is a typical example.. i used 2 beg him to go back.. bt he refused to.. now other school ask for help, he jus wen back n jus inform mi that he is goin dwn to other school n tts it.. so now if u sae tt if i dint wana go back, think otherwise.. marcus aready noes hw it takes mi 2 feel the pain everytime wen i wen back.. tts y he dint wen back bt instead help others which deserve help..

lastly i will still sae tt is they deserve us 2 go back, WE WILL GO AND USE WAD EVER MATHOD TO TRAIN U ALL UP!! CLEAR!! and please dun ever sae tings that r nt coming out frm my mouth.. thank you..

wooow!!!
I just ask someone to help mi create this blog!!!! three cheers for Nicholas ha ha... Oh ya by the way i am quite noob it this thing... So pardon mi for doing somethings wrong here... he he...
so i need to end here cause later i will have m last day in IMH ATTACHMENT!!! yeah!!!! so i will blog later 2 nite...byes..

testing!~