ytd wen to corp 4 trainin... found out alot........ alot of tings.... i wen bk wit my old classmate.... i.... kept myself slient... i m tryin 2 control my feeling all the way to the lrt station. bk hm.. on my way.... i kall the other corp instructor... i wana mit him... cos my officer nt in singapore... so i find him.. i waited 4 him outside the corp.. i kan still get hold of my feelings until wen he ask mi.... y m i soo sad, wat happen... at tt moment, i burst out my tears... i kant take it le... i tld him everyting... i mess it all up. is all my fault.....i cried....... the timing is nt right. my officer is nt there 2 "cure" mi up... i mix all my feeling i mix all the pbm tgt... i realli kant take it.. 2 dae is the last time le... should i go? should i ask? wad should i do? go early?.. wen i reach hm abt 8pm, i tell everyting 2 my officer in tt corp.. no 1 kan help mi ans tt... onli a few of them knew abt wad realli happen in the 1st place... hatred nt happi wit mi. 1 of them ask mi 2 tell them... i tld them tt no use le. so long, they dunn believe.. also i tell her... as long as they will learn, i will nt sae the truth.. i realli wana b frends wit them bk... i dun care anyting... jus frends... i m nw alone..lonely... i realli kant tink of anyting else. tok 2 an instructor at 12 plus till 2 plus. askin should i or nt ask it... until last there is no ans 2 it. bt she tell mi 2 slp, hope 2 have a dream tt will tell mi wad 2 do... i realli did dream oof it.. is a nice dream... bt i dint noe wad 2 do even wen i woke up. a nice dream, should i believe n ask? i duno... i realli m a lost 2 it... no 1 will c tis post until the night. no 1 will ans tt. i mus do it by myself.....