Stress...
argh... i m stress. i kant believe i had been overly stress 2 jus a simple ting. a real simple ting. whether i still wana help in tt skool. bt wad happen? i still ended up helpin them without me, myself knowin y i would wana help.

so i did do my best in doin the command list 4 the parade. started ytd abt 8 plus ba. askin my OTC malay frend 4 spelling, then 2 FDI sliver ppl 4 command n help. ended up finish at 3am 2 dae.. have 3 hrs or slp, wake up at 6, mornin prayer.

after tt i jus roll on the bed until 8 plus then i gt 2 slp again n wake up at 12noon. after tt, check the command again. bold the commands, n print out.

then at abt 2 plus, i rest on the bed n read the command list, then i found out tt the sum command no nid or some missing. i was so shock tt i jus on my comp again start doin over again. the heng ting is tt i nv send 2 my instructor 1st cos is wrong. so after tt i even ask a full time NS men 4 the command. n finish abt 7pm. i kant believe i nv left the comp until nw. n is goin oooohrs liao.

until jus nw then i was lyk tinkin if i help, will they feel tt although tings happen, i still willin 2 help. bt then i after tt i dun wana care. cos i m damn scare abt whether tml i wana go bk my corp anot.. kept on tinkin abt wad will happen tml...

i was lyk so nervous tt i kant even eat my lunch properly. kant even relax. even i m jus sittin n watchin show, i kan feel my heart pounding, fast n hard.

tell the truth. i m nt scare abt ppl. i m realli scare abt the parade.. i duno y. i m jus scare i will jus stand there n do nth. or jus nth will happen.

i m so stress tt i kant even tink properly so stress. i m nt lyk tinkin tt if my partner was gon wit mi, i wun b lyk tis nw. bt he is nt in singapore.

i realli wana rest. bt no mood. haiz.. i wil try 2 rest asap liao. blog again tml