i think this is the 2nd time i really gona cry. step forward or back, which is which, i m always being left alone... what can you do if anyone in the same situation as me? haha

haha... a lot of things are going on.. i m quite sick and tired of this problem already. why this is not a good place? someone tell me please? am i a person that what you all think? please tell mi? maybe i don't know wad am i doing? maybe i am that stupid? haha.

this past 2 weeks had happen alot.... haha. last week, i was suppose to be on off on Thursday, but due to some things happen until i need to go back to camp. end up, totally is not even my fault, omfg.. end up i had take a half day off to rush to some where as i wanted to go and promise to. then on that week Friday, went to Singapore flyer. 1st time, boring but nice.. anyway had a nice weekend with some long time no see friends... lol.
5 days ago, when for COC.. end up go home late cause i had to wait for bus 67 damn long. then also no half day pay back... then yesterday duty.. damn noting to do, like wasting time, but good thing is that there is a 1 day off pay back...

now the wish is that there isn't any duty on labour day for me, i want a long week end!!! cause too long never had a good rest... lol...

please please hopefully that there is someone to get me out tomorrow... if not i m really going to rot man... lol

haizzzz... it has been a long time since i blog... it seems like a dead blog here... lol
a lot of things happen all this days.... so i decide to come here to say somethings... lol.. FAC just finish, long time never see any of the cadets form other school.. and that day, all of them saw Marcus and me like saw a long lost friend or brother to them.. haha... quite happy but a bit weird... did noting much, jus drive my uncle's lorry around Singapore in 2 days.

drove to ECP to have a little supper, then to changi village to enjoy a little "sight seeing" of " ladys" there and enjoy nasi lemak there... feel awful when i saw them.... lol then went all the way to jurong to let Marcus get some stuff for booking in... too much place to go... just can't believe that the first day of driving after pass my TP, i actually went a lot of places almost all the express way i also tried before liao... lol...

some sad things to share.... today actually we book out from camp at 7 plus due to some exercise... haha... and few days ago, saw two person that i wanted to talk to them so badly, but never got any chances to talk to them... lol... quite sad. but what to do? i can't do anything... haizzzz. i really hope that they know who i am talking to and hope they will talk to me also... dreamzzzzz....

its my birthday today..... haha... but not celebrating at all... stay at home, sleep, eat and use the computer.. that's it... believe it man.... is my 21st birthday...
lifes like this.. no celebration, getting prank calls, doing noting, trying not to get sad about anything.

a lot of wishes... thanks... but something is still missing from all this. is a wish from you......

never mind forget it... hopefully things will change big time... haha.. open minded

here again
haha knew that there won"t be any one to see this blog because it had been left untouched until today.... haha things had been changing a lot every since the last post ba.... haha cannot do anything.... haha what to do? i also don't know... can someone help me with this problem?... haha

there is alot of things happening lately but i didn't have the time to post it. why? reason are simple, i always sleep about 10 plus in the night, wake up at 6, go work, eat, work, eat, slack, go home, bath, go out meet Marcus or take a rest at hm then doze off.. it happen everyday. so didn't really have the time to post.

Friday and Saturday SYF doing duty plus sjab day, spend quite alot within a week, about 5 hundred bucks!!!!! wtf that's the very 1st time, plus owe alot of cash also... lol.. seems like every body knows how to do tai chi... push and push.. not about sjab.. but something else..... haizzz. don't really know what will happen this week.. hope for the best ba...

i didn't sleep at this time because so many things had pile up in my head, as in my health, family, should i message her, sjab zip, what i feel like doing, what i feel like not doing, and which one should i start 1st. everything just pile up, and it seems it will never stop...

didn't really feel like thinking, but still non stop... lol
really wish everything would just stop tomorrow, maybe i should get some sleep now....
see how tonight, maybe i will go into details.... haha