Hoe Theng

2011-06-05T19:22:00.002+08:00

i think this is the 2nd time i really gona cry. step forward or back, which is which, i m always being left alone... what can you do if anyone in the same situation as me? haha

2011-06-05T18:25:00.003+08:00

haha... a lot of things are going on.. i m quite sick and tired of this problem already. why this is not a good place? someone tell me please? am i a person that what you all think? please tell mi? maybe i don't know wad am i doing? maybe i am that stupid? haha.

2011-04-23T23:57:00.002+08:00

this past 2 weeks had happen alot.... haha. last week, i was suppose to be on off on Thursday, but due to some things happen until i need to go back to camp. end up, totally is not even my fault, omfg.. end up i had take a half day off to rush to some where as i wanted to go and promise to. then on that week Friday, went to Singapore flyer. 1st time, boring but nice.. anyway had a nice weekend with some long time no see friends... lol.
5 days ago, when for COC.. end up go home late cause i had to wait for bus 67 damn long. then also no half day pay back... then yesterday duty.. damn noting to do, like wasting time, but good thing is that there is a 1 day off pay back...

now the wish is that there isn't any duty on labour day for me, i want a long week end!!! cause too long never had a good rest... lol...

please please hopefully that there is someone to get me out tomorrow... if not i m really going to rot man... lol

2011-03-28T21:12:00.002+08:00

haizzzz... it has been a long time since i blog... it seems like a dead blog here... lol
a lot of things happen all this days.... so i decide to come here to say somethings... lol.. FAC just finish, long time never see any of the cadets form other school.. and that day, all of them saw Marcus and me like saw a long lost friend or brother to them.. haha... quite happy but a bit weird... did noting much, jus drive my uncle's lorry around Singapore in 2 days.

drove to ECP to have a little supper, then to changi village to enjoy a little "sight seeing" of " ladys" there and enjoy nasi lemak there... feel awful when i saw them.... lol then went all the way to jurong to let Marcus get some stuff for booking in... too much place to go... just can't believe that the first day of driving after pass my TP, i actually went a lot of places almost all the express way i also tried before liao... lol...

some sad things to share.... today actually we book out from camp at 7 plus due to some exercise... haha... and few days ago, saw two person that i wanted to talk to them so badly, but never got any chances to talk to them... lol... quite sad. but what to do? i can't do anything... haizzzz. i really hope that they know who i am talking to and hope they will talk to me also... dreamzzzzz....

2010-12-12T20:25:00.002+08:00

its my birthday today..... haha... but not celebrating at all... stay at home, sleep, eat and use the computer.. that's it... believe it man.... is my 21st birthday...
lifes like this.. no celebration, getting prank calls, doing noting, trying not to get sad about anything.

a lot of wishes... thanks... but something is still missing from all this. is a wish from you......

never mind forget it... hopefully things will change big time... haha.. open minded

here again

2010-12-06T17:33:00.002+08:00

haha knew that there won"t be any one to see this blog because it had been left untouched until today.... haha things had been changing a lot every since the last post ba.... haha cannot do anything.... haha what to do? i also don't know... can someone help me with this problem?... haha

2010-07-04T03:35:00.002+08:00

there is alot of things happening lately but i didn't have the time to post it. why? reason are simple, i always sleep about 10 plus in the night, wake up at 6, go work, eat, work, eat, slack, go home, bath, go out meet Marcus or take a rest at hm then doze off.. it happen everyday. so didn't really have the time to post.

Friday and Saturday SYF doing duty plus sjab day, spend quite alot within a week, about 5 hundred bucks!!!!! wtf that's the very 1st time, plus owe alot of cash also... lol.. seems like every body knows how to do tai chi... push and push.. not about sjab.. but something else..... haizzz. don't really know what will happen this week.. hope for the best ba...

i didn't sleep at this time because so many things had pile up in my head, as in my health, family, should i message her, sjab zip, what i feel like doing, what i feel like not doing, and which one should i start 1st. everything just pile up, and it seems it will never stop...

didn't really feel like thinking, but still non stop... lol
really wish everything would just stop tomorrow, maybe i should get some sleep now....
see how tonight, maybe i will go into details.... haha

2010-04-17T01:38:00.002+08:00

most of the time taking in a really deep breath before you start working or anything, makes you think more and cool down your temper....

few hours back i am having my school speech day.. never don uniform, but really see them training themselves hard.. just that there is a small problem.... yet big to everything... slacking and really dragging of the time... of course when this things happen, it all automatically piss the officer off... and then...... taaaa dar.... punishment to everyone!!!!

and the whole circle start again..... cadets hate officer... cadets complain to teachers.... teacher scold officer.... then back to the cadets again...

never mind never mind, i m not the one scolding them, just a mentor which go back and help out and get feedback, change to what they need, and that's it....... haha

now i m wondering is that person which go home so early had settle the problem? hopefully everything is all right....

remember taking a deep breath really helps a lot...

2010-04-07T23:46:00.002+08:00

i didn't intend to post anything today but something happen right in front of marcus, shihui and my eyes...

there is a road traffic accident involving a young girl and a car. the good thing is that my is just down stair my house, so i can go get all the 1st aid stuff i need to treat her before the ambulance arrive.. suspect cheek fracture, chin wound and abrasion on the left leg...

hopefully that girl wont have any problem happening to her.....

2010-04-03T22:26:00.001+08:00

haha just got the result of of another FAC... the NC gt 3rd!!!! lol... is this year a good year for me?... haha .. althought i taught them a little bit... i aready knew they can make it... so many people help them, there is not even a need for me haha teach some more... haha... just a big congrats form me to them!!!!!

still thinking should i go or not... haizzz... how lehzzz....

2010-04-03T06:49:00.002+08:00

should i go or should i not go... so many places... in the 1st place 1 ask me to make it free on that day... any now they told me they don't want me to go... what the fcuk am i going to do!!!!

later should i go for the uniform plus the "sightseeing" or go meeting, or jus stay at home?

so many things to decide... how? tell me please.......

2010-03-31T00:42:00.002+08:00

having a weird feeling..... is like very sad and feel helpless... so messy!!! later in the morning must go for the run..... i don't feel like running!!!! so many problem yet to settle...... so many.... haha

2010-03-23T19:23:00.002+08:00

everyday is like the same old day..... kept on emoing... can't stop thinking of a lot of things i shouldn't think of... wanted to have a big rest... but i can't...

wanted to called people to go out and then chat so that i can stop emoing but they don't have the time.. so i don't even dare to call them out liao.... i really stop thinking of a lot of things...

yesterday someone in the morning message me, a number which i don't know who is it... at that time, i thought that is the person that i really really wanted to chat with... but end up is another friend of mine.....

haizzz... i think i will keep on daydreaming until one day, the dream turn real...

till that day then.......

2010-03-21T15:34:00.002+08:00

yesterday went for the competition and then what happen? one of out team got 3rd place... haha.. what a good training plus the effort they made before the event starts.....

today went to lot 1 with marcus just to walk walk around.. but it seems that the competition had past so long.. so long that we didn't even feel like talking about what happen yesterday.. so we went to popular to look at books... then suddenly one friend of us appear when we least expected... when he say hi, i knew there is something wrong liao.. just as i thought he is with them?! so i quickly shoo him off then trying to act calm and continue to walk around.. but it just seems that i wanted to see her but dun dare and don't know how to. so we just pretend that we didn't saw them and continue walk.
whew... pass them without much problem but there is one thing in my heart... i wana talk to her!!! arghhh... never mind.. is over, i can't rewind the time le.. so just let it be and hope there will be another time we will meet each other again...

untitled.....

2010-03-19T23:50:00.003+08:00

it was a good day from Thursday morning till evening... heard that my OC wana change the competition team members.. but it didn't happen, because the forms had been submitted up to HQ.

the reason of my OC wana change it is because my team commander is still very blur of doing 1st aid case... and can't make decision to command the rest.... so actually meet a senior NCO for a meeting session.. wanted to change the commander. but then he is not free tomorrow for the competition.. haha ( so it didn't have a change)

so during the meeting i ask some stupid question. and got myself hit.. stupid right?... i really just wanted to know the answers!! but never mind.. that's what i wanted to ask.. itch mouth..

everything just seems to be so fine from the starting of the first training in corp till 2 days ago.. really thought that it seems to be so "alright".. haha

never mind. i will be all right in front of everyone and act that there is noting wrong, since tomrrow might be the last time i will be free liao. nvm at least there is this blog for me to say what i wana say. because i don't think that she will really read it.. even though i told her to read it.. maybe tomorrow there will be a letter from me to her. and that's it.

yesterday i told marcus and emerson that i m realli quite tired already.. maybe its time for me to have a long rest... a long long one.......

i really wanted you to really know what i really think. i m sorry...

you had promise me to go OTC... i will promise to let go of it. kk?.. thanks

thanks to those which really have to look at my idiot blog... haha thanks a lot...

lastly, good luck to those going for competition tomorrow!!!

this few days....

2010-03-18T19:09:00.002+08:00

past few days a lot of thing really happen. after the camp, there is training on Monday (4days ago).. i m happy because there is training and interview... most of all there is a person that i wanted to see badly.. and that day was my 1st day after so long i really get to talk to her... although at times she piss me off due to talk a lot, i m really happy because she is there helping me. i really wanted to thank her. and really wanted to chat with her...

people would say that i can go msg her... true, but i don't have her number because she change her number. i know that i can go back and see her and chat with her, but after the competition training. i wont have the time to go back school for training and ..... find her....... due to my off is going to used up for this competition training. i m not going to call her or ask her out because i don't even have the time to go out due to army.. is all my fault all this time. i am truly sorry. i really wonder will she really forgive me..

after Monday training, i really had no mood to go back to work due to mix feeling, about the training, is it enough. and... her.... really had no mood but still carry it back and work. and because of this i eventually piss someone off,... i m really sorry.

on Wednesday night, i when to another school for a campfire, we help to do it because they are having it for the 1st time... and at 11pm plus, one of my instructor msg my OC and tell him that she is having flu and she can't go training and because of this, i had to take my urgent off in the morning today. and nearly got scolded because is really too late to take off.. i told my cadet that they must really get a 1st place or 2nd so i will feel worth while to take the off today...

the really best thing is that i at last saw her scold my cadet after so long. ( what is this!?) i m really happy about it because at last she really did what i use to tell them to do last time.. i swear that i m really happy.. she give me a conformation that i really can relax about my corp already..

i m happy today that i get to see her again... but today might be the last or last second time i will be able to see her again. i really hope i can really get a chance to have her number... at times my friends told me to get her number from them and msg her. or told me that i actually can have her number myself because we got the record of the info of everyone. but i didn't because i really wanted her to forgive me and give me her number herself.

things really change a lot..hopefully she did notice that i change a lot. and she really did change a lot... hopefully things will get much better for me.. hopefully she willing to give me the chance.. pls and thanks a lot... i just wanted to tell her that because i m not sure did you really forgive me, i didn't add you on anything facebook or what so ever.. please..

hope that she really can have the chance to see my 1st post till this post.. thanks

what a nice day......... not.....

2010-03-13T08:58:00.002+08:00

today get to use the computer because i m totally not at home.. i am at my school combine UG camp. but i am not under them due to competition training for cadets... those instructor which knows us well get to play a lot of thing last night . we had 6 computers in a bunk... lots and lots of food, steamboat... haha i don't think anyone would believe we can do this.. everyone had a nice night.. watching movie, DOTA, battlefield, facebook, eat steamboat the whole night.. now still having people watching movie.. shoik lah.... haha.. so tired now. but i cant sleep.. because later gt train shot case.... haiz...

i will write this much.... later when i m free at night, i will blog again lo... haha

emo?

2010-03-08T23:45:00.002+08:00

things actually happen long before today.... it happened seven months ago.. i thought that i had already forgotten about all the past and move on until that day when my buddy and i were in a jungle for training.. although is way past bedtime, but he is sad. so i listen to what happen.. he told me that he misses his ex girlfriend which the girl broke up with him.. is a really sad story. he really misses his ex soooo much until i can't believe it. he is a tough guy from the outside. i can never imagine that he is that soft.. pray hard that he can get her back!!!

at that point of time, i realize that i had never forgotten the things at all. time flies fast.... yet noting had really happen. how i wish i could just chat as a real good friend again....

in the first place i thought 2days ago when i really met her after so long, can have a chat, but it didn't happen... my hopes are really high.. but when i saw her, it really makes me happy for that 2 to 3 hours (due to rushing down to another place for home nursing training).. even though we never chat much..

did i really miss her so much? m i emoing everyday?

i really wishes that i could really have a nice chat with her 1 day... maybe she will really know that i had change.. maybe.... please make it happen.......

never gonna be alone

2010-02-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

Time, is going by, so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of here with you
Now I'm wondering why I've kept this bottled inside
So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
You're never gonna be alone, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands
'Cause forever I believe
That there's nothing I could need but you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

Oh, you've gotta live every single day
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away, could be our only one
You know it's only just begun, every single day
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes

Time is going by so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day
I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day

2009-11-28T23:38:00.001+08:00

Two Is Better Than One 歌手：Boys Like Girls

2009-11-18T22:20:00.001+08:00

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought hey
You know this could be something

'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true,
That I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time,
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two,
Is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true,
That I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time,
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two,
Is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought "hey"

Maybe

back!!!

2009-11-08T22:14:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo!!!!
i am back again!!! welcome back to my blog if there is anyone reading... hopefully there is... haha..

times are bad.. there is a handful of people doesn't care about what happen or had happen to another friend or the other side... why is it so difficult to tell the other side to do something right or wrong? or just to say..... "i am very sorry?..." true indeed... that was difficult... but did anyone of them really gives that person a chance or just a minute to listen to the reason?

there might be a reason like, they didn't know that they like him/her so much. thus, one will do something wrong..

at times there is a person told another one,"i think it will not gonna be long... please thing twice before deciding it again...".
i would like to say," you think, i thought who confirm?". plus they never tried it, how would they know it wouldn't go long?.. i always think that they are at the place they should be happy at but they rejected it... WTH.. so all those people that are alone, lonely, how would they think? do anyone know hoe they feel? how they sad, lonely, how much they didn't wana be alone?..
NOTE: btw i didn't meant you... yes you!!! because when you say that, it makes me remind of someone.. really. i didn't meant you...

everyday is a new day... a hard day.. hopefully it will made me forget that event again...
i can't believe the place i am working at, is making me getting darker and darker by the day... its too hot everyday at there... carrying heavy stuff here and there... going to learn forklift liao.. trying to run away from it because i wana drive car... not that... lol... but anyway, it is nice working there la... haha
haizzz. stress.. tomorrow must work overtime liao.... no choice... so must sleep early... so i will come by here when i am free the next time?... haha so cya n take caresss...

Low Shoulder - Through The Trees Lyrics

2009-11-08T18:31:00.001+08:00

All alone in an empty room
nothing left but the memories of when I had my best frIend
I don't know how we ended up here
I don't know but it's never been so clear
We made a mistake, dear.
And I see the broken glass in front of me
I see your shadow hangIng over me
and your face, I can see...

Through the trees
I wIll find you;
I wIll heal the ruins left inside you
cuz I'm stIll here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathIng now...
untIl I'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees

I remember how we used to talk
about the places we would go when we were off
and all that we were gonna find.
And I remember our seeds grow
and how you cried when you saw
the first leaves show.
The love was pouring from your eyes.

So can you see
the branches hanging over me?
Can you see
the love you left inside of me?
in my face
can you see?

Through the trees
I will find you;
I will heal the ruins left inside you.
Cuz I'm still here breathing now
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
until I'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees.

Cuz you're not coming back
And you're not coming back
No-oo.. No-oo.. No
You're not coming back...
You're not coming back...

Take my breath as your own
Take my eyes to guide you home

Cuz I'm still here breathing now...
I'ms till here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here...

Cuz I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here..

Cuz I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here..

But you're not coming back.
And you're not coming back.
Cuz you're not coming back
until I'm set free
Go quiet through the trees.

flashbacks

2009-10-04T21:00:00.002+08:00

haha.. it had been a long time since i last post on this... haha.. it is due to my computer... siao liao... on then it off itself... now is better le... then other then this problem, there is alot of test stacking up... haha use com just to study then off the com...... at last i m free.... because there is 2 more test then thats all... haha...

in my cca, there is something that i need to do.. like there is going to have duty to do le... is off-shore duty... lol in an island again... haha... and here comes advance course!!!!... this time there is something special... looks like another style plus everything in it... lol... which Marcus and i will have something in different now... which everybody will see the different side of us... (if we are able to make it...? lol) show them we can......

but.... there is a lot of things happenings... a lot of flashbacks seems to happen to me... just like walking on the streets, things like, what i did when i was young... what went wrong, what i did is right...... sad things... good things.... it just made me go round and round... sometimes... i even had sever headache... damn emo.... but then have to still be happy that i still have all this friends around...

what made life goes on?.... friends? family? girlfriends? or what? wad pushes you to carry on? it is quite a tough question for me.. because there is somethings i still stuck on the same spot more then half year le... really.. should i say? should i do somethings to forget it? please jus please i would wana find a way 2 stop it... really... i am so tired le... really...

jus another day

2009-09-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

wow... long gone 7 weeks.... i m goin to promoted again liao... lol tninking that going to miss my bunk mates... haha. one day ago we still beat the best of the best at the games day... lol... got ourselves a shash for our flag... lol

today... went for the last road march... lol damn shag... still have to carry alot of things to another side for the open house.. it is nice and quite fun there. i cant imagine that i have gone so far and even never skip a thing durning the whole course... lol...

9 cant believe there is notting march i have to say.. haha wait till next week which i will have 1 week of rest at home... haha

soooooo........ stay tune to my next post... lol

it is soon b the starting of a new life....

2009-07-21T20:07:00.002+08:00

haha went thru so many tings that is going around my friends and me... haha so fast another week is goin 2 pass and a new life will begin for everyone...

last week is the last time in this month that i am going national day training.. the nxt time will b 9 Aug le... haha enjoy alot... slack alot... haha.. wanted to continue.. but cant...

saw someone's birthday, don't dare to wish... saw so many things going happen but can't help... wanted to say somethings to help, end up with the whole lot of crap coming out from my mouth.. so many stupid things done but none can be resolve... haha

nvm ... going off this friday le.. bid farewell to my greatest friend, marcus... wow!!!! plus jj, sj, wl, cl, sh, nich, emerson... too many le... haha they are my good friends wen i m mostly down and pull me up... haha be it in CCA, outside, emotional problem, all being solve... (erm... i think emotional de part i think still got abit lo... lol) don't know what's going to happen 2weeks later when i am back awhile before i go again....

so scary, so nervous, so stress, thinking of what's goin to happen back at home, CCA, school. haha must get out asap... lol.. haha just remember that my friends say something funny 2days ago when we are going to bugis to buy a stupid watch for myself... haha... out of a suddenly he call me, ' eh. i wana tell you something... i am going to miss you...' lol that was funny.. but i felt something warm down la... haha because is had been long since someone told me that. or because of erm..... i don't know how to say....

Nevermind, i will be back, till that time, will will ton until we are happy and drink all sorts of beer, wine... haha anything that will be nice... haha..

until then, this will be my last post.. maybe the next post will be out on 9Aug 2009 ba... haha
should i say stay tune? haha i guess no one will see my post de ba?... haha jus post so that i will feel better? lol.. ok so... if there is people seeing this last post, wait till 9Aug, if not on 8Aug, call me and ask me to do it... haha... till then, take care everybody!!! friends, familys, whom i wanted to wish to... GOOD LUCK FOR EVERYTING!!!!

woa long....

2009-07-17T19:42:00.002+08:00

so long i had been posting.... lol i think the last time i posted was 2 trainings ago.... lol...
so many things happen a lot within this pass 2 weeks...

the 1st training, we had to go out for awhile cause there is a meeting for all officer and instructors.... so we took all the way to walk from the F1 pit stop at marina, to walk all the way back to HQ just for the meetings... haha.. so after the meeting, we went back to the pit stop... 1st we went back HQ with just 2 instructor and me, and went back with 4 instructor, plus a superintendent... haha
after that went there for a while, then we all plus the other 3 instructor had to go off early because we have gt an ticket for the CR3 show... haha got myself a orange bag.... it contain a lot of stuff... then saw the parade... erm... i got noting to say... just let the other officer to tell them. because i am a medic in the contingent, and a welfare officer... haha nobody believes right?... sad to say i m and i m over welfare until when i got angry, they still joking to me.. and until i shout, they just stop... haha

the second training were worst, cos that is the 1st time i shouted with when i m carrying my umbrella and in front of officers of the SAF... haha that dae was just as fine as the other days. but due to the 1st NE show, all the pr 5 bus cause a jam outside until our bus cant make it on time. and i heard that there is an accident happen outside and 7 ambulance were activated... haha

then cadets started to cry one by one... look like i am taking care of a bunch of kids... lol they told me that they cant go home so late.. there is one which is the worst which we all worry about.. she stayed at Malaysia that result she cant go home.. but the good things is that the problem is solve..... haha

haha 2days ago, went to see doctor... the doctor told us that she might be demented due to stroke... .. i almost break down.. but i hold on... pain la....

2 day i heard my mdm told me that tomorrow i have 2 wear uniform due 2 NE show.. so i tried on my uniform and found that i still suddenly can wear the safari again.... lol... so tomorrow, i will wear my safari for the last time... lol...

so maybe this will be my last post or tomorrow will be last.. good luck everyone tomorrow!!!!!

Another week past.....

2009-06-26T22:11:00.002+08:00

haha actually i wanted to post erm... on Sunday after the sinma banquet. but.. haha sad to say that i m too tired. i actually kept on thinking to post it but, always end up lazy... haha...

so last Friday, wanted to sleep at about 0200 plus. so talk to my senior officer while ironing my uniform because i think that it is not straight.. then he offline at about 0130 plus so found out my my old school mate online. so i talk to him.. so without looking at the time, i end up talking to him till 0400 plus... lol.. cant believe that.. so i thought i can take a small nap till 0600 to bath and settle everything before i go n meet my instructor... the sad thing is that i cant get to sleep even i m lying on my bed... haizzz.. so dint really get to close my eyes for the 2 hours.. haha

so went to food fare for breakfast.. haha although i dont feel like eating. but somehow i still manage to finish my plate.. maybe people will start saying that i m fat so i can finish my plate.. even my instructor cant finish.. lol.. so went HQ change and wait for the cadets 2 arrive, change, put their things in the lecture room, before they fall in and check their uniform, do some foot drill before going to the marina floating platform for the training.. haha. heard that they only have 2 training before the things finishes. but it will took them from 1100 to 2100.. what a long training.. lunch time, cadets enjoy their KFC haha but they ketp on complain to me that they want my share because mine is 2 big slices of pizza from pizza hut.. lol.. but try to imagine every odd weeks 2 eat the same food.. yucks.... haha you will somehow hate it ba... haha. but that side there is good food there.. haha free flow of Mr bean, Milo, ice plain water. and old Chang kee.. cant you believe it.. got so many things to eat lol.. dinner is worst.. they gt lots of baby potatoes, baby carrots, a piece of bread and a big piece of chicken meat( don't know which part??).. haha but it looks like half pieces of chicken.. damn big man.. but they still don't like it.. they keep on asking mine.. so i open my box and saw 1 piece of tau gua (with sweet and sour sauce), broccoli, and vegetarian duck meat plus yam rice.. lol.. i don't know why they wanted to eat mine but tell you the truth.. it is not that nice.. but it sure make you full until you want to vomit.. haha..

ya the 1st training, i didn't went in. due to no pass.. idiot.. why cant each group have 10 passes for the officer? so didn't get to go in lo. but i went there prepare myself, i brought my sowing kit, and started to made board for my rank, for safari.. haha. some people cant believe that i can do 1.. but too bad i done 1 prototype de (kinda ugly).. than i show them whats the special things on what i made.. so i ask them that the board that we normally put on, we cant bend it because it is made up of cupboard. but mine is made up of bendable plastic.. so when i bend it, they open their eyes big.. lol.. so around the evening, we went in for the last full dress training of the day.. haha so end up with a casualty with me haizzz. suddenly feel so sian that i need to go to the medical post.. haha.. after that saw tanks chiong into the place.. and saw how do tank do a emergency brake and drift.. haha although is because the front tank suddenly stop that result the rest hve 2 drift a bit and do a sudden brake.. haha damn nice. like you can see the tank like going to do a front flip due to suddenly brake. haha. then the parade. then at last a short about 1 km march. woa i was un prepare for it that i never tighten my boots that cause a blister on 1 leg.. lol.. then that ends that day.. very tired.. so got home about 2300 plus... bathe, on computer until 0100 plus before i K.O on my bed..

so woke up at about 0700 plus, meet my officer then went for the sinma competition.. saw their uniform (because Malaysia uniform is different from Singapore de), their foot drill and command... it is totally different.. haha to us we can say it weird for their drills, but different country have different way for commanding and drills.. haha.. so when it ends, they told me that they are going to go for the banquet. so i also feel like going to it. so i decide to call my officer. i m risking myself to get scolded but he didn't.. haha.. so i went home take my safari n go. haha gt free food there. but must work... taking temperature for all the guest.. gt MOH big shot go... then saw Singapore mess kit and Malaysia mess kit.. woa that day everyone was so smart.. haha. but wen the event starts. only 3 were left on the table . the rest disperse some where to do their job.. haha so our table is the weirdest due to 10 sit table only have 3 people on it... lol.. sianzzz some more our table looks the most messy. food and bones everywhere. bags uniform cover are just lying everywhere around the table... haha that day oso went home abt 11 plus at night.. haha... sian then the rest of the day is just sian... haha until today. started doing my board for the rank. this time it really look as if i just got it from the store.. haha damn nice..

so thats all for to day.. tomorrow CR2 will have another things to blog le ok.. haha.. so nw i mus go n iron my pants n get ready for tomorrow's training plus looking for martial art class for me and my friends.. haha. cya buai and chao.

Empty....

2009-06-16T08:59:00.002+08:00

haha yesterday i sleep at 1am plus due to cannot sleep... lol.. today end up waking up at 6 am plus then i cannot go back to sleep.. then in my mind i keep on thinking about a lot of things.. so many things keep on going thru my mind.. suddenly i feel so empty.. it seems like there is a lot of thing i need to do but there is noting to be complete.. i don't know how to explain this but i suppose some of us would know whats going on... then i just remember quite an old song from "the click five- empty"... i really got the feelings when i listen to it.. lol.....

The Click Five - Empty

Tried to take a picture
of love
didn't think I'd miss her
that much
I want to fill this new frame
but its empty
tried to write a letter
in ink
its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
but its empty
its empty
maybe we're trying
trying too hard
maybe we're torn apart
maybe the timing
is beating our hearts
we're empty
and I've even wondered
if we
should be getting under
these sheets
we could lie in this bed
but its empty
its empty
maybe we're trying
trying too hard
maybe we're torn apart
maybe the timing
is beating our hearts
we're empty
oh oh
oh oh
oooooh
oh oh
oh oh
maybe we're trying
trying too hard
maybe we're torn apart
maybe the timing
is beating our hearts
we're empty
we're empty

Is balancing everything everytime will work out?.........

2009-06-12T18:32:00.005+08:00

haha... it seems like every time i only get to blog once a week.. i might think that it is due to lack of things to talk about... or sometime, lazy, tired, sad, emo, no feeling, noting to talk about.... so on.... haha..

i think i would just talk about something that happen lo.. haha..

last sat, same thing went for NDP training there... wow.. damn sian.. but then just nice i got 2 cadets that is not feeling well pei me.. haha.. because all of the school are having either camps or things that stop them from enjoying themselves.. and due to that, headache due to too much stress, work, not enough sleep... haizz.... then when start training, they start to pei mi.. haha. first thing is because they cant attend the parade, second, they come towards me is because, i am the medic for them, plus they know that i m a nurse...( a type of nurse that is not working but then got a practising cert with me..) just nice, we talk a lot.. although i think i talk a lot... (hopefully they don't mind) because most of the time, mouth seldom open due to lack of people to talk to... even with my ah bang, marcus, only use msn, type, lol not mic...
back to topic... at first we talk plus see the parade, G.O.H open fire for the 3 respecting fire. (i might be wrong. if can, correct me. thanks)then saw mr brown, a guy which talks about Singapore news? he is quite a funny guy. and record nice podcast (I'M A FAN OF HIS!!LOL). he was there wanted to shoot some videos for his blog... he actually wanted to take some girls guides for interview, but then end up they running around, so wanted to look for some here. bt sadly to say, the cadets were being ask to fall in at the time. so left me, and the 2 girls to take care of.. so i told the cadets, believe me, he is coming after you both liao... lol. indeed, mr brown went there and took interview from them... haha. but after that, i felt that there is something wrong going to happen. mr brown went after me, grab me, and then camera start rolling.. start askin me to answer some questions... so paisei lo... lol but the heng things is that they never post the videos on his blog.. lol

durning their break, some for the cadets which have camp, they asking me, why i didn't go for their camps?.. also asking me to go their camp for their camp night.. so i was thinking that maybe i should try asking their officer to see whether i can go and take a look.. so got a chance to go lo..
when the training ends, i wanted to go home and change, but the cadets asking me to follow them and go.. so i follow them lo.. haha it sounds like i anyhow easy to follow people around de.. haha
so went with them to the school for their camp night.. haha.

so i gt there abit too early, and i saw what happen there, like flag lowering, dinner,and then campfire.. haha

so anyway some people might be thinking that what do i mean on my title.... so here's is what i m going to say. durning the camps i saw things that can be commented on, quote and praise.. is like i suddenly think of whats going on in my old schools. how are they doing now? and also, asking myself, did i do something wrong or not? it was like, i did somethings like whats happening durning their camps.. i still can't believe, whats are the reason that we can't compare my school with others?what i scold might be too hard for them to take it.. but why other schools cadets can take it? tell the truth. i really kind of miss my way of guiding the cadets to learn from mistake...

why there is some people say that every kid s0 is the same, and mus be threats the same way as what other better kids do? and there is others that doesn't?

balancing? do we need to scold cadets (which done something wrong) to the max so they will listen? or should we slowly guide them, use the "love" teaching method to teach them? to me, i tried both... and found out. the 1st one has the most effect on them. and it usually work. but beware, negative things will happen to you sooner or later. which is, either teacher, or parents scold us for using that method.. or the cadets quit (and after that, teacher will start to nag at us for scolding them too much). should i say, that is the kind of "love teaching" we wanted to give them? we, the older generation had gotten training worst then we train them now.... complain? they wanted to protect the kids. so they complain, then why there isn't much people complain about the tougher training the garhmen give for guys? things are worst then we do. why not we are training for them in the future? haha

the second 1. nice at first. but worst later. they will listen to officer which use the second method with their own will. but people tend to find out, they climb to the top of their officers head. haiz.. then at that time,when they wanna use the other method, it will b no used le. because they wont care about it liao..

haha. it seems that they never look forward...why they never find out that after we scold them, whatever things they do, they will remember in the future? but then other way, they only remember for a few days then forget. haha..there is a third way...

and the third way is to combine... the second method is only can be to use for the first few days, then the 1st method will be the later part. which means balancing. it work more then the 1st 2 method.. but the teachers don't allow. cos they only us to teach with T.L.C...and thus. they only learn for the time being... after they quit or stop the class, they will forget it, like i say "i have return all the class that i learned, back to the teachers le." so i forget..
now the question comes into my mind, should i be fierce, loving, or balance?

another thing, when you have a girlfriends for guys, do you think maintaining a balancing of forgive, forget and sometimes tell them whats right or wrong is good?
haha.. i thing there might have a bunch of people think that you should never tell them that their are wrong, it will cause a world war there.. so here comes another question.. should you balance? haha..

i wanted a balance home with my bro. but i always didn't get the balance of T.L.C from my parents. they tend to scold me more often then my bro, which always cause the most trouble. or even all the trouble is he cause de. and i m the 1 that always get scolded for him.. they say that i m the big bro. i should guide him. come on, they gt no way to help him le. do you think i can help it? i was like thinking, should parents have a balance of T.L.C to their own family that have more than 2 kids at home? haha..

so does balance help? in everything or just to a minor stuff?

yesterday, have quite abit of fun, went out with my other friends for 1st aid help out... lol.. so long never went out for the damn whole day to enjoy myself... haha.. firstly went raffles place.. to witness an event, a emergence fire evacuation exercise.. wow.. so many people frm 4o plus story come down from that building.. haha.. worst of all, wen they are out, they started scatted around to smoke.. it seems like they don't even wanted to care about the things which is going on there.. haha.. after went to SNB to do my nursing cert.. when went to that building, i found out that they shifted to NKF.... make my wasted my trip to go SGH.. lol nvm but i did went there to do my cert.. the cert is lyk onli a piece of paper with a thin piece of plastic that cover the part.. haha but then is nice la.... now my wallet looks like so gay like that.. cbecause i never believe my wallet got a nursing cert in it... feel so gay... lol... but then i m not la... haha.
after went HQ to get a ride near my house so i can have a cheaper MRT ride back home. and also see kranji turb club. cos my friend got a duty there.. sunny ask me to take a look and see the place where the horse run.. cos he told me that they only allow age 21 and above to go in there... haha so i use that time to enjoy myself there before i go home... then at there, we saw star so close. so chio... lol my friends took a photo with her. wow what a nice full day i spend wit my friends... haha. today send some instructor off for OTC camp.. sian.. gona be so lonely this 4 days le.. haha.. till now, i have been on my com playin restaruant city on face book and that all...

To the instructor in OTC.... GOOD LUCK!!!!! and to all friends and whoever that sees my blog, try listen to mr brown podcast!!! its nice... visit the link below.... thanks... tomorrow will b another NDP training le... gud luck 2 all cadets that attend!!!

www.mrbrownshow.com

Sorry--Buckcherry

2009-06-05T11:31:00.000+08:00

Oh I had a lot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry baby, Yeah.
I'm sorry.

......

2009-06-05T11:15:00.002+08:00

almost a week since i blog. last fri went out with gang. then watch movie at my friends house. actually wanted to go home after that show. end up goin home at 5.30am in the morning due to sum1 sleep even before the show starts.... haha

sat morning, went hq with friends again for home nursing course. end up only wen for less then an hour due to ndp training.. haha when wen there for training, i saw my old school mate which is in the commandos for this year G.O.H. alot of school mate from my batch will know who is that guy.. lol..

monday till 2 dae there isnt anyting to write about.. only wen i saw a photo,a photo that mess up my mood.
there is a thing i need to do before i go..the chance is slim.... really slim.. less then a month to complete.. should i forget... or should i not forget.....
so many things wouldnt be the same....

it's you- Ne Yo

2009-05-31T18:56:00.001+08:00

It's you, it's you, it's you.
It's you (ooh)

I'm at a lost, don't know what to say to you. (mm)
Throwing me off, i know what i feel but i can't tell you i do.
See now i know my fights not for myself, my fight's for you.

You're everything i never wanted to want, it's true.
Said you're everything i never wanted to want, it's you.
It's you, it's you, it's you.
It's you, it's you. (mm) (ey)

I'll write a song three times a day but i can't talk to you. (ooh)
I know what's wrong, i never meant for me to feel like i do (oh)
If this is love, it sucks cause i don't want it but i do.

You're everything i never wanted to want, it's true.
Said you're everything i never wanted to want, it's you.
It's you, it's you, it's you.
It's you, it's you. (mm) (ey)

Just walk away (ay), wipe that smile off your face. (hey)
I just wish i could say that to you.
But i need you tonight.
Need you tonight...
I need you for life.
Need you for life, life, life.

Said you're everything i never wanted to want, it's true.
Said you're everything i never wanted to want, it's you.
It's you, it's you, it's you.
(oh woah woah)
It's you, it's you. (mm) (ey)

yoyoyoyo... i m back.. haha

2009-05-13T23:38:00.002+08:00

after so long i decided to blog.. cos i was lyk tinkin tt if i wait again, i m goin 2 type alot le.. haha

last wed wad my grad dae.. haha i pay 5 bucks 4 it, y shouldnt i go? so i ask my fren follow mi co si dint wan my parents 2 go there. i will ps de haha. so jus nice he kan go wit mi, (thank you!!!) he sumore drive mi there lol...haha. bt then wen we r half way thru there, there is a damn car tt jus suddenly stop his car, then my frend gt no choice tt he jus press the emergency brake. i m sittin in front.. i now tt was very close to the car in front... we look at each other... i tld him tt tts the 1st time i felt tt.. there is also some drifting. cos it was rainin... worst come to worst.. he tell mi tt is his 1st time i do tt... haha. we were jus shock at the same time haha wen i reach there, we gt a SNB badges.. u noe wad happen? we were being ask 2 get up into the stage 2 get the cert. wow. if i m nt wrong. the place is lyk filled wit abt 1000 plus ppl. frm as young as baby to as old as sum1 grandparents.. haha.. after i wen 2 get my result.. to my worst, i my marks onli allow mi 2 go poly after i work in hospital 4 1 yr.. then out of a suddenly my frends called mi bk to the general office again. my teacher sae tt she is sorry tt tt is the onli marks 4 the last term. the real transcript i haven take. an 2 my shock, i gt the enough marks 2 go poly... lol..

after tt we went nyp 2 go for a swim, i go sun tanning... haha.. i kant believe the ting is tt i onli gt tanned 4 onli 45 mins, i n realli gt a bit darker.. mb tt dae was after the rain then jus nice no clouds... haha..

then thur n fri i was jus at hm slackin haha.
on fri nite, i wen to the thai temple wit my frends 2 help him, actualli i m jus ther 2 pei him, haha he actualli there rec the vid of them chanting, then we were at the back crapping haha..

on sat, i went there at 11 plus for lunch there. actualli i eaten at hm then go there eat again. bt then dint expect tt i m so full. haha.. then i was there doin 1st aid for them, they put the board stated "red cross station".. then my frend ask his dad mus change it 2 1st aid.. cos i m nt frm red cross oso wad haha.. gt a kid gt the joss stick ash burn his eye lid. so i wach it 4 him..i tink tts the onli kid tt keep mi awake.. bt then my frends dad came, ask mi 2 use a mic 2 speak.. dots. i tts the worst. i dun dare bt then is lyk i nid 2 do it. so my frend ask mi. n we decide to take half.. he more worst, put the vid cam 2 rec mi.. the tings tt we nid 2 sae is lyk damn long, after we speak finish, we were laughing at each otthers way of speaking. then we were scare cos damn nervous lo. haha..

then after tt dae i gt nth 2 do until jus nw tt i went to the uniform aunti shop.. she help mi "repair" my pants as well as my frends, then jus nice i saw my teachers uniform there oso. haha. so i kall her n tell her tt her uniform is ready. they she sae wen she gt the time then she go. btw the aunti tld us tt the uniform was ready abt a month ago.. haha.. then she oso sae tt there is a bunch of female safari havent gt collected since last yr... PLS IF ANY 1 GT 2 NOE HU IS IT, PLS GO N COLLECT!!!! thanks...

at last i finish everyting.. haha bt lastly, after 2 yrs, i m a nurse le... lol lol!!!

another day...

2009-05-03T23:54:00.005+08:00

things jus some hw change alot.. on the whole it realli did change... real big man... started nt 2 tok alot le lo.. so lonely lyk shit.. haha actualli everybody is so bz abt test, final yr project, skool, parades, jobs, out field, 'days' inculde national days etc...

so where m i? at hm workin hard on lookin on the newest movie, checkin mail, doin alot of parade stuff, watchin the lame show lyk 'Gaki no Tsukai' (jap show, funny n stupid) '蜡笔小新', tinkin of wad 2 bring 4 the trip tis july... lol... is jus basically staring at the comp 4 long hrs again..

oh ya i jus rmb tis wed is graduation.. so fast.. goin 2 b a nurse le lo.... haha.. mb the lousy 1 or a gd 1? mb my patient will have the ans.. haha
wen i tok abt tis, i jus rmb sth tt i gt a qns in my mind.. 生老病死可怕吗? tell the truth, after i stept onto tis path, i realli seen passing away peacefully, n also nt.. seen alot of patients as young as few daes old, to 80 plus or 90 plus years old (if i m nt wrong) admitted 1 dae to few months. good or so called 'bad' 1s. 1 sae he had nv been home since half a yr ago.. also, a patients over a century old.. abt 105? stayin at tt hm 4 half a century, nv went out b4..then nw wen i tink bk abt the qns, i tink tt it still had the balance on the qns.. yes wen u r scare. no wen u tink tt is norm.. tell the truth, i m still scare of alot. bt no matter wad, tings had its ending. if there isnt an ending, there will nt b a beinging.. wow wen i sae tt tons of tings came into my mind.

if there is once a fren, whom accidently backstab u, scold u, hit u, sae sth tt u kant take it, pls tink 1st b4 u wana end the frendship.. pls... cos mb they backstab u cos they dint wana make u suffer... mb scold u cos u did sth wrong, tt mb ur frend tinks tt if u gt a scoldin, u will change... so tt u wun offend the others nxt time... doesnt mean change 2 another psn, character, no. is nt... mb say sth bad at u, dun tink tt he or she is realli wanting 2 sae u, mb is other ppl tt change her mind.. u kan sae tt no body is perfect, bt doesnt mean u dun try 2 b 1..
dun break the relation of a frends. ever heard, having a frend is 三生来的福阿. very lucky to have a frend. dun mind even he or she is a gd frend, best frend, bad frend.. all teaches u frendship. all teaches u to bcome a gd lady or gentleman. no matter hw bad the frend is, they also teaches u wad is gd or bad nt by tell in u, is by ur heart deep dwn.. frends help u 2 grow, strangers doesnt mean they will help u.. so please. do sth 2 recover it back. bcome frend again. in a group, one n one, it doesnt matter... i sae tt cos i did sth wrong bk then.. 2 times. is a bad ting tt i nv recover it bk. if he n she c it, pls....can tings start anew?

few years back, i got a big 'fight' with my friend, it is so big that alot of people is being involve... i had that friend almost 8 years.. and beacuse of a small matter that is totally not his or mine fault, tt resulted a broken friendship... although i told him i m sorry, we are back together, i just really wanting 2 sae a big sorry to him..

next is a pbm tt i scolded her.. i realli did, if i m nt wrong, she nv saw mi sayin tt so angry b4, mb nt. mb alof of times, i dint noe? i scolded her tt she should change her way. in a certain way. things are small, bt is seems 2 be very big 4 mi... wen she is having holiday, i m still studying.. at the point wen we started 2 drift apart, i have a dream tt even myself, i oso dun believe it. although is jus a dream, i felt so real.. so real... in real life, she is still alive.. bt i gt a dream tt my mom is goin 2 pass away any moment at time. i kant save her ast time. she ask mi nt, SHE ASK MI NT!! is in dream bt is so real.. i cried. i realli did. watching. so in tt dream i kall her, she rush dwn n stay by my side, i ask her 2 act in front of my mom 2 let her 'go on peacefully'. 2 let my mom stay happy to the last.. she stay wit my thru out all the way till it end. wen i woke up, my face was cover wit tears. i woke up at abt 4 plus tt time, i n nv went bk 2 slp again. at 5 plus then i wen 2 skool. at tt point of time, i sms her tt i m sory abt wad i done to her.. i tld her the reason. tt dream. she tld mi tt she dun trust mi tt i m sorry abt everyting jus bcause of tt dream, she said tt if there isnt tt dream, i tink i will still b angry wit her. i wana sae nw to her is tt it is true tt if i dint have dreamed of it. i always wanted 2 sae sth tt is actualli after that 1 dae i gt angry wit her, i m nt angry wit her anymore, is jus tt i wan her 2 promise mi tt she wun do it 4 sure again.. tts y i m still acting angry wit her... bt i nv did have a chance. i realli diint have the chance. it had been abt half yr le. she change her no. i dint get it. b4 hand gt a gal wanting 2 gime. bt i rejected it. cos is nt nice 2 get it frm another psn. actualli 2 weeks b4 the speech day of tt skool,i have written dwn a msg at 9 arpil 2009 at 2.45am. cos i kant slp. i been tinkin of her at tt time. wanting n tinkin tt will i n kan i send her tt msg? i wrote,"(name). i noe is sudden. i jus wanaa ask u 3 qns. do u still hate mi? n kan we still b frend? y? i trust u n wans u to and drm ureslf pls. do mi a favor, pls dun tel any 1 i msg u. i wana tell u sth. after we dun tok, even i had frend,i kant tok much comapre to u. pls 4give mi.1 or last time, pls reply mi. thkx." i realli did the msg, bt ask alof of frends tt whether should i ask? cos tings will b changing soon after speech day. some tld mi nt 2. some tld mi 2 send. i decide 2 send, bt she gt a no change, so i wanting 2 ask a frend 2 give it 2 her, ended up, i nv send. cos even till i leave tt skool after speech day it self, i dint ask them send. cos i duno whether should i send. bt heard she gt sum 1 askin her 2 bcome frends bk wit mi bt it doesnt work.. she sad sth tt it means i gt no way 2 bk bk frends wit her again... i m so sad. 2 frends walk mi dwn frm skool. i oso dint tell them abt i aready noe the ans until the last mins b4 we took the bus.. i have tears, bt i stop 4 very long... tt was a last wonderful parade in speech dae i had seen. thank you very much... till nw i m still tinkin whether will she 4give mi? i realli hope 4 the ans. bt as long as it is i m nt tryin 2 blog so she will 4give mi, i still wan her 2 relise it by herself. tell the truth, i saw sum 1s blog tokin abt frend tt reminds tt i should write it out..

in real life, 2 yrs bk, my mom gt a operation on the head, cos of high pressure in the brain to the skull, resulted tt there is a blood vessel burst. doc or nurses would noe tt if the pressure is nt remove, big tings would happen, so they drill a hole dwn to the skull n remove some fluid frm the skull, to relieve it.. bt the i heard there is alot more had been done. totalli abt 3 operation at time. tings turn realli bad at tt time. my whole family was so stress abt it. until nw, my mom is still 4getful due 2 it. since then tings had been goin wrong 4 mi? haha.

frends a 4 ever even they a gd or bad. they r equal. learn frm them. 4give n 4 get the past. start anew wit them.... whishes all frends will b gd n lucky also. inculdin the 2 i mention!!!! gd luck 4 the mid yr exams!!!!

something that can't be explained

2009-05-01T01:38:00.002+08:00

there is a video on youtube tt the music is very nice.. i duno y, bt it some hw show mi the feeling tt i m having nw.. no lyrics.. jus music... 2 mi is tt it show a feeling tt i have bt there is no words tt i kan explain..

'Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence'

please enjoy...

feelings....

2009-04-27T01:33:00.003+08:00

2dae gt a chance 2 blog cos i jus tink there is a need 2 do so.. actualli i oso duno y i gt tt feelings.. hahas..

it has been long since i type cos the rest of it is jus copy n paste... haizz. nwdaes i jus onli sit in front of my destop everyday frm abt 12noon the 4 plus am in the mornin... watchin show, anime, playin miniclip... it looks lyk i m still playin games tt were being intro 2 mi years ago.... cos i gt no ideas tt is there any other webby tt i kan play on... nxt ting which jus came out of my mind is tt mb i on my com, jus hopin 2 sae tt psn came online..i tink i m stupid 2 sae tt, bt i gt less then 3 months to stay in tis island cos i m goin elsewhere... nobody noes...

jus nw i did another copy of command list 2 my frend tt nid it 4 1 of the skool speech day.... he sae tt their skool sjab if by tis yr still nth "big" came out of it, they r goin 2 change 2 ncdcc. so he was so shock tt he jus tell mi he wana help the skool speech dae.

i jus tink tt my corp is still the best cos nomatter wad every yr GOH will rotate among the uniform groups..cos i heard tt sums skool, even my frends skool oso the same, tt means onli give to the 2 strongest uniform gp.. 2 mi i totalli tink tt is unfair. i mean al least give each n every 1 a chance wad... so my frend decide 2 plan everyting n give it 2 the teachers. his teachers so gd.. sae tt if gt ppl help him, the money 2 go get the uniform stuff is nt a pbm... wow he is such 2 gd teachers....... my frend did a nice plan... n i noe tt the complete 1 will b lyk doin a big project lyk plannin AGI tt big haha.. i stand 2 him.. he even ask mi 2 go help out. bt then i tell him tt i duno tt skool, cos is far. so far leh. lyk i goin 2 skool 4 nursing course frm my hm la.... haha.. i jus tell him tt if there is a need tt he duno hw 2 teach, i will rush n help lo haha..

last ting, i would lyk 2 sae, I MISS U, MARCUS YEOW REN JI!!!!!! wahahaha....

爱情悬崖

2009-04-25T03:19:00.001+08:00

妳说我像一个小孩　总爱让妳猜　
我说妳才像个小孩总要我说才明白　
有些事太快　失去了等待　
让爱　没了期待
我们的爱　怎么才自然　
每次沟通不来　就要离开　就说不要爱
我掉进爱情悬崖　
跌太深爬不出来　
下降的速度太快
来不及踏上未来　
妳的爱反复徘徊　
打乱我呼吸节拍
该怎么逃开　我控制不来　
我掉进爱情悬崖　
回想起妳的可爱
傻傻的还在等待　
以为妳还会回来　
妳的脸慢慢离开
时间快将我掩埋　
消失的太快　我负荷不来

Sorry-Buckcherry

2009-04-19T16:46:00.001+08:00

Saturday, April 18, 2009

2009-04-19T00:41:00.003+08:00

i realli duno wad 2 sae.. duno wad 2 do.. i duno hw 2 write the feelin dwn.. i wana cry.. i scare i kant take it.. i realli duno how.. tis mb is the song i wana sae 2 her..

保护色--苏亦承

想对你说的让他先说了
从此只能猜测
你流泪是因为快乐
想要给你的他先给你了
从此只能负荷
寂寞和爱本来能分割
祝福你是我的保护色
专心扮演朋友的角色
在你们拥抱的那一刻
我心一分为二

欺骗你是我的保护色
甘心做个爱情的弱者
真爱不是就能逃的远远的
等待是我自责

路越走越曲折不能回头了
能伤害我的都是我爱的
还保护什么还保护什么
祝福你是我的保护色
专心扮演朋友的角色
在你们拥抱的那一刻
我心一分为二

欺骗你是我的保护色
甘心做个爱情的弱者
真爱不是就能逃的远远的
等待是我自责
爱你是天责

周杰伦 - 说好的幸福呢

2009-04-17T11:02:00.001+08:00

你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

2009-04-17T09:59:00.002+08:00

ytd wen to corp 4 trainin... found out alot........ alot of tings.... i wen bk wit my old classmate.... i.... kept myself slient... i m tryin 2 control my feeling all the way to the lrt station. bk hm.. on my way.... i kall the other corp instructor... i wana mit him... cos my officer nt in singapore... so i find him.. i waited 4 him outside the corp.. i kan still get hold of my feelings until wen he ask mi.... y m i soo sad, wat happen... at tt moment, i burst out my tears... i kant take it le... i tld him everyting... i mess it all up. is all my fault.....i cried....... the timing is nt right. my officer is nt there 2 "cure" mi up... i mix all my feeling i mix all the pbm tgt... i realli kant take it.. 2 dae is the last time le... should i go? should i ask? wad should i do? go early?.. wen i reach hm abt 8pm, i tell everyting 2 my officer in tt corp.. no 1 kan help mi ans tt... onli a few of them knew abt wad realli happen in the 1st place... hatred nt happi wit mi. 1 of them ask mi 2 tell them... i tld them tt no use le. so long, they dunn believe.. also i tell her... as long as they will learn, i will nt sae the truth.. i realli wana b frends wit them bk... i dun care anyting... jus frends... i m nw alone..lonely... i realli kant tink of anyting else. tok 2 an instructor at 12 plus till 2 plus. askin should i or nt ask it... until last there is no ans 2 it. bt she tell mi 2 slp, hope 2 have a dream tt will tell mi wad 2 do... i realli did dream oof it.. is a nice dream... bt i dint noe wad 2 do even wen i woke up. a nice dream, should i believe n ask? i duno... i realli m a lost 2 it... no 1 will c tis post until the night. no 1 will ans tt. i mus do it by myself.....

........

2009-04-16T07:25:00.002+08:00

HELO EVERY1!!!! lol.. sadly 2 tell the truth, i was being woke up by y dad.. until nw i gt no mood 2 go bk n slp le... lol

lets tok abt ytd......woke up late as my cadets nv call mi wake up... bt onli a msg.... i did realli tld them tt if they dun wan mi 2 go, they kan jus dun kall mi 2 go dwn.. i dint tell 1 cadets. bt 2.... haha.. so i wen 2 ask my frend n settle it, should i go?.... or should i nt go?..... so they tld mi nt 2... cos is better 2 save my pride.. n make sure tt without mi is very bad.... wow u noe wad?... wen i heard tt, the sentance realli make mi wana try.... lol... bt i jus tld them tt my instructor kall mi the dae b4 2 ask mi 2 go dwn... n then i oso sum hw gt a msg frm them.... then i sae there isnt a pride liao... is onli a trust towards my instructor ba.. and mb the last image 2 show 2 the cadets.... haha.... wen i sae tt, it turns mi into emo shit again... is lyk the slient breakin pain frm the heart...... lets dun sae it....

so i wen bk 2 skool... wear full u wit my very old classmates... he is in SPF commin bk 2 help out in their trainin.... same ting as usual, my old classmate, ex cadets frm 1 of the uniformed gp, and mi tarted the parade markings.... after tt.... they try their parade... 1 time settle.. tt means great parade 4 every 1 in it....

after tt wen 4 the normal trainin themself.. my instructor gt another instructor frm another corp 2 help out... she shouted at the cadets... wow i kan tell u.... tts the 1 time i heard so loud scolding since after last yr speech dae, if i m nt wrong.. the feeling of the trainin i wan is sum hw bk.... n bcos of tt, i train them.. jus 4 a while cos of the foot drill is still nt tt good..

after tt went bk hm after trainin alone... took a bus.. bt it seems very very long, so tok 2 my corp officer awhile... since 2daes ago i tink he is oso emoin... lol no mood 2 blog until 2 dae...

jus nw, i had a very sad dream... wen i woke up, i dun feel the pain... nw wen i tink bk, if i dint wake up, i might get into a stupid ans tt i will always sae even i dint wan it 2 happen... haha. bt wen i tink of it, i found out tt mb is a hint abt sth i will ask ltr if i gt a chance 2 go bk skool ltr.. realli...

MARCUS!!!! RMB Y WE WEN 4 OFFICER COURSE? WAD IS IT? N WILL TT HAPPEN? lol....
if i gt the mood, mb i will blog again......

till then.... cya...

2dae......

2009-04-14T20:30:00.002+08:00

2dae woke up by alam frm my hp.... kall hq officer bt then he tld mi tt he nt in hq... i ask him tt cos my instructor tld mi tt the corp gt no shoulder flash. so i decided 2 kall hq 2 check whether the store gt open anot. so hq sae gt open then direct my kall 2 the aunti tt open the store. sad 2 sae tt the store still gt no stock.. worst still wen i ask her whether wen the stock will b up, she ask mi 2 kall the officer i kall jus nw 2 ask tt qns 2 him... i kant believe tt she open the store bt then duno wen the stock will arrives... lol

my instructor wans 13 pairs of it if i m nt wrong..... cos tis fri is the skool speech day... lol i duno where 2 get it. bt then last min, he kall another skool n c whether kan borrow frm them anot... they sae kan bt onli they r nt in skool for the speech day tt fri. cos the other skool oso gt speech day tis fri... lyk aready plan together de. haha

so i wen 2 yewtee 2 borrow a fleid rank 4 my uniform.. wen 2 the trainin wit my instructor. found out tt we kan have a parade marchin in b4 everyting starts we jus have 2 go in early kan liao... so we wen there, discuss wit the commander. then 2 the rest o the uniformed group., they tld their teacher n they sae ok.. best still, my instructor ask the parade teacher in charge.. n found out tt is ok wil it.. shock bt happi..... n they give all the ex students, vice principL n the principal a good job... thank you all the psn in the parade, band, ex student, teachers.....

although i m happi 4 them, bt then i m still sad.. there.... i kant explain thru words.... bt sth i kan sae.. is "so near yet so far".... haiz.. sth tt i nv tell them abt us officer in tt corp...... hopefully tis fri kan b a successful dae. hope sum 1 will gime a right ans tis fri... pls....

hopin tings will change...... realli hope 4 it... marcus... m i rite? lol...
sum1 pls tell mi, will i still endure n stay on? thanks....

frm thurs to 2dae

2009-04-13T21:42:00.002+08:00

thurs.... hahA gt a chance 2 have a sneak peak at 1 of my frends hse. haha he ask his frends 4 steamboat at his hse cos 2 dae he wen army. lol. after tt we wen 2 sunshine place 2 look 4 vcd 2 watch cos we all satyin overnight at another frends hse.. 5 brains each gt diff ideas of watchin wad.. tis kanot tt kanot... stuck at the shop 4 abt half an hr... until last min, decided to go his hse n buffer the show on the net.. ended up 1 K.O 1st. follow by another 1. left the 2 of us, tokin alot of stupid tings there.. takin foto, tokin jokes until 1 of them kant stop laughin..

fri... early in the mornin, we pack our bags n go sentosa cos their cadets wana bid a farewell 4 tt ns 2 b... at 1st it realli looks lyk is 4 him.. bt end up left the so kall the 3 olds ones stickin together cos they play by themselves. haha. play volly ball, lookings 4 gals, bt there isnt any... oh ya. we rent bicycle n cycle ard the place. at 1st, there is totalli nth 2 look at. bt then wen we went to tanjong beach, woa... is lyk tons of dogs n chio bu there... even 1 of my frends look until fell off frm the cycle... lol. wen we wana go off, it rain. is so coolin bt thenwe r allhavin sun burn.. lol. after tt wen vivo city eat pasta mania.. playin a open numbersss... if ppl lose, they will eat tobasco sause wit all sorts of tings found on the table... all frm my table gets 2 al least eat i once... lol.. actualli wana watch movie bt then too late.. end up 1 gp change 2 3gp. i wen home even b4 we wen 4 dinner. 1 wana watch movie (bt then i heard tt they end up playin arcard until 12). the last gp is us, which wen hm after eat... i nida wgo hm cos the nxt dae i gt NDP trainin.

sat.... wen to hq without eating, tok 2 alot of ppl. bt then all craps.. get cadets 2 carry boxes of water... then wen 2 nee soon camp.. saw all uniform gps except npcc... then found out tt there is alot of gals there look damn pretty... bt tt is nt the ting i wana care. the best ting is tt i saw mr jemery tan frm my ex skool ncc... we tok alot... sumore oso found out alot of weirds tings frm him. all is being change due 2 new ppl ( i wont sae) was so called "put" to tt skool.... lol.. enjoy myself.... also saw wad happen wen it is flag lowering. miss it so much...

sun... nth 2 do bt then in the afternoon, ns guy ask mi 2 go out wit him wit another frend cos he wana buy a non cam fone. ended up buyin a watch 1st, goin 2 abt 3 shops over n over again until i oso sian then gt to buy a fone 4 him... haha cos the hp tt he wans don have stock liao.....

2 dae..... wen to bmtc 2 send him off... waited so long take the damn slow boat. view the bunks, the tings they will issue, c hw he swearin in, the last lunch wit him, the 1st time saw him fallin him n lyk so bo chap face... lol i will surly miss him...... after tt my other frend n i wen 2 downtown east, play arcard... wow change alot.. is lyk it look nicer... ok i tink i m nerd cos it change a long time ago bt then nw then i sae... haha.. then wen hm get a slash 4 my cca. then tml get another tings frm a frend of mine.... haha

tts all folks

A Little Too Not Over You -David Archuleta

2009-04-10T01:10:00.002+08:00

(this might some hw remind of her. n this mostly can explain my feelin towards her..)

(so... enjoy)
ooooh

ohhhh

ohhhh

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside and I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
(oooooh )
Not over you (oh eh eh eh)

Memories supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong, moving on
But I see you sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside and I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, oooh, oooh, oooh
Oooooooh
Oh
Ooooh, oh

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you
(oh eh eh eh)
Not over you (oh eh eh eh)

..........

2009-04-08T22:42:00.002+08:00

......2 dae duno y. slp late ytd, ended up wakin at 8am. online, no mood 2 eat due 2 nt well (cos tinkin of goin bk corp, scare)

bt, ha... still at last i gt the courage frm my frend n the officer which is nw over the sea. although the parade is nicely plan frm the nco, bt it is nt being carry out due to principal wans sth other then normal parade. bt then still wana sae tt they did a good plan, follow the SAF and the CCA's Parade protocol, well done.

there is a time wen the teacher wana change more tings, 1 of the commander dun dare 2 sae, bt i kan c frm his expression tt he doesnt wana change anymore. so, i tell try 2 tell the teacher abt the parade kan dun change anymore. bt ended up still mus follow teacher plan plus a scoldin frm the teachers. lol. i jus wana sae, i m sori tt i kant change the teachers. i noe u all wan the more command as it will b nice bt i kant change them. sorry to all commanders tt wana use the actual planin u all wans

tell the truth, wen i reach there, i was actualli being cast away... dun feel tt nice bt still swallow it... 2 mi, i tink they knew tt i do the command list, bt they dun even wana care abt it... maybe i jus wan some 1 appreciate ba. haiz.. nvm nvm..

wen it ends, i wen BPP 2 mit jj wit the sj n wl which is wit mi the whole dae. onli eat ice kachang.. then go buy stuff 4 steamboat tml. wen i goin 2 reach out of the gate, i took a pic of the place, hall n canteen. walkin out, tinkin wen will b the last time tt i will visit tis place which gt a very good and bad memory since yr 2001... wow times past jus lyk a blink of eye....

nw wo zhen de she bu de leave tt place wen i step out. wen i reach hm, online again tok 2 the officer on msn which is nw oversea. tok half way, tears nearly come out. come on. i m a man. y i kan cry rite. haha.

then i after tt, i took out the parade command list, edited the list for the parade and email them. hopefully everyting will go out fine..

i realli wana do the corp well. i realli wana stay.. haha

lasty i wana wish tt the parade will go outs well, plus GOOD LUCK 2 THE G.O.H N THE COMMANDER!!!!!!!

Stress...

2009-04-07T23:24:00.002+08:00

argh... i m stress. i kant believe i had been overly stress 2 jus a simple ting. a real simple ting. whether i still wana help in tt skool. bt wad happen? i still ended up helpin them without me, myself knowin y i would wana help.

so i did do my best in doin the command list 4 the parade. started ytd abt 8 plus ba. askin my OTC malay frend 4 spelling, then 2 FDI sliver ppl 4 command n help. ended up finish at 3am 2 dae.. have 3 hrs or slp, wake up at 6, mornin prayer.

after tt i jus roll on the bed until 8 plus then i gt 2 slp again n wake up at 12noon. after tt, check the command again. bold the commands, n print out.

then at abt 2 plus, i rest on the bed n read the command list, then i found out tt the sum command no nid or some missing. i was so shock tt i jus on my comp again start doin over again. the heng ting is tt i nv send 2 my instructor 1st cos is wrong. so after tt i even ask a full time NS men 4 the command. n finish abt 7pm. i kant believe i nv left the comp until nw. n is goin oooohrs liao.

until jus nw then i was lyk tinkin if i help, will they feel tt although tings happen, i still willin 2 help. bt then i after tt i dun wana care. cos i m damn scare abt whether tml i wana go bk my corp anot.. kept on tinkin abt wad will happen tml...

i was lyk so nervous tt i kant even eat my lunch properly. kant even relax. even i m jus sittin n watchin show, i kan feel my heart pounding, fast n hard.

tell the truth. i m nt scare abt ppl. i m realli scare abt the parade.. i duno y. i m jus scare i will jus stand there n do nth. or jus nth will happen.

i m so stress tt i kant even tink properly so stress. i m nt lyk tinkin tt if my partner was gon wit mi, i wun b lyk tis nw. bt he is nt in singapore.

i realli wana rest. bt no mood. haiz.. i wil try 2 rest asap liao. blog again tml

another day

2009-04-06T16:56:00.002+08:00

few days ago, heard frm my frend in oversea sayin tt he had a big pbm.. so big until i oso kan do anyting... haha bt the stupid ting is tt i gt an idea. quite stupid, bt it kan b done. haha. i use my bro's laptop plus a big speaker n a mic.. wad i do? i use my hse fone n kall his mother, use the mic put on the phone cos the heng ting is tt my phone have loud speaker setting. then i kall him thru msn, then put the loudspeaker near my hse phone so tt he kan use it n kall his mom 4 free.. n wad?! it did went thru, he kan hear his mom his mom oso kan hear him.. n tok 2 his mom abt the pbm. nw although is quite solve, bt he is still wry abt his mom... haiz.. nvm haha

after tt ting, i felt happi.. at last i did st help him. lol. although is small, bt still kan wad haha.bt after tt dae, alot of old stuff wen thru my mind.. i found out tt i did sth overboard tt i tot i will b positive in the long run, bt it turn out 2 b negitive. is all my fault..although tings cannot b turn around, bt then hopefully tt part will change 2 a better 1..

hai.. ytd was quite a weird bt enjoy day (i surppose..) haha.. ytd went 2 NDP trainin. so many big shot were there. the chairman of the NDP committee frm the navy(i tink so)came dwn lol.. a general man.. have way thru his fone rang. "ba bu ba bu garang kuni." lol.. tts his ringtone!!!! nice rite? hopefully i oso kan get tt man lol.. then after tt i saw sth which tis yr i tink most of the ppl onli kan c him frm far or on the tv durning NDP.. lol. tis yr's parade sergeant major!!!! he is lyk a star wen i c him. (although is nt laa..) he is damn near 2 us la. ssssooooooooo nice....

tis sat we a goin nee soon camp 4 trainin le. is lyk damn siao la. i goin army le. then b4 goin still nida go camp...so weird bt ok la. haha..

2dae as usual. watch tv. play com. watch "la pi xiao xin" watch movie. drama. whatever ting i kan do at hm (bt nt rot) kan liao.. so sian.. no 1 goin out wit mi.. haha. i jus feel lyk i m goin 2 b out of the world kina psn liao. lol.

tis yr i feel lyk i learn sth big. real big. tt means i will still try my best 2 help ppl wen they nid help although sth bad will happen. although it did stop mi awhile near the end of last yr, bt i will still do my best frm nw on.. i noe there will b ppl say tis n tt again. bt nvm.. let it b lo. as long as do the best kan liao ba? lol.

Bye Bye-Mariah Carey

2009-04-04T23:39:00.002+08:00

(tis song is very nice, cos i jus rmb tt i nv sae bye 2 sum1. 2 mi, she is impt bt 2 her, i tink there is nth.. haha nevertheless, this is 4 u.....)

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no
Mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye
You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye
This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
Mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

haiz....

2009-03-25T17:31:00.002+08:00

i duno y ppl c the blog le then comment on msn?... weird lo... blog is a open space 4 ppl 2 write wad they wan rite?...

so y does ppl dint comment on the tag n sae leh? y ppl jus dun get the full pic n jus comment leh?... haizzz.

if ppl wana use blog, then dun hide it... then hu kan noe wth ppl blog 4?
jus show... there isnt nid 2 b scare.. unless u havent found out the truth n put it up....

so wads the use for sayin ppl blamin others?... did i?

wow.. i noe i m petty onli.. bt then i dint noe ppl would sae tt i push blame on others...

n lasty... to mi rite, is better 2 read properly each n every single word frm it, THINK 1ST b4 saying anyting... thanks alot hor...

...duno wad 2 sae...

2009-03-24T17:41:00.001+08:00

haha.. every body is fan abt wad happen last sat haha.. after the comp.. probems kept on rising.. hmmm.. i surpose i wana sae sth here ba..

my corp gt 2nd in nursing cadets.. congrats.. bt then wen i saw the marks, i was at shock.. they gt 2nd cos of their home nursing.. they gt the highest of all.. tis credits should go to the corp instructors!!! haha.. bt on the other hand, the footdrill, 1st aid dint get so much marks......

so no matter wad i would lyk 2 sae tt my method of trainin 1st aid n footdrill is still the correct method... so wad is the damn reason tt the cadets kant take scoldin? come on.. i still kant believe our corp is the onli corp cadets dun wan scolding and worst of all, the teacher agree 2 it.. so i was lyk " y kant tings b the same as other corp? (if i sae tis 2 my mdm, she would sae" they are diff frm our corp, y would u always compare with other corp?" can u guys believe tt!?) ppl are the same. COS 2 MI, THERE IS NO PPL HU ARE MORE STUPID OR LAZY THEN OTHER CORP WHICH ARE FAMOUS... THEY ARE THE SAME.. is lyk, 1st aid, we nida clean the wound wit antisceptic lotion, bt then in other corp, the method is diff? it kant be rite?

bt y kant our corp, my teacher sae tt they are a bit slow tts y they kant b scolded? 2 mi n marcus, i kan sae it real, THIS IS BULLSHIT!!!!!

last sun i gt a duty. i saw my teacher. u noe wad happen.. i dint wana mention abt the comp.. n wad happen? she BACKSTAB mi tokin 2 my instructor.. kant u believe tt? wad kina teacher is she? all my senior in my corp tld mi tt they quit sjab, IS COS OF STH. no body dare 2 sae tis.. NO BODY. cos she is senior teacher.. my teacher tot they quit cos of sth else.. woa.. i kant believe.. haha

all of my frends sae is a unfair bet tt i gt frm teacher. cos they called other instructor 2 train them.. bt then nvm i will tok 2 sum 1 n tink of the solution 2 it lo.. haha

mb concertrate on trainin myself in the NDP PARADE 2009... i was tld tt i mb can b the contigent commander in the parade... yeh... haha..

until then, i will stop typin nw.. cos i scare i would sae out all the secret.. n then sth big would happen again wahahaha...

ok stop here le.......

sth 2 show all of u... " the word 'lie' sits right in the middle of the word 'believe'." get wad i mean?

Bleeding Love---Leona Lewis

2009-03-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes
with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy,
maybe, maybe
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding-
Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

woa....

2009-03-20T15:40:00.002+08:00

hais.. tml is the compitition le... so many tings 2 do n complete... haha hopefully 1 of the gp i train will win... although is little bit here n there.. still counted ba... haha

nxt ting is tt i heard they nid ppl 2 go 4 NDP training tis yr.. at 1st i tot i kant get into it le.. bt then sth gd happening... haha. my mdm ask mi whetherm i free 2 help out anot... haha of cos i sae ok.. bt if i go army theni kant le lo... bt she jus sae put my name in it lo haha. n wen i ask her wad do i do 4 NDP? U NOE WAD..... she ask mi 2 try n c whether i kan b the contigent commander tis yr wit zone 5...

i ws lyk wth.. tts my dream man haha.. bt i oso dint put much hope cos there is stll chance tti kant b in it... haha..

nv the less, gud luck 4 the ppl goin 4 compitition tml.....

helo..........

2009-03-16T10:55:00.002+08:00

yoz!! blog again haha. 2 daes ago i went 4 a duty at NTU open house.. is so boring lo. hai.. bt then i saw my old skool mate haha Darwin.. haha. after tt i saw alot of ppl there. gt handsome guys and pretty gals haha.

then the duty of ours start at 9.30am till 6.30pm. then after tt there is 1 weird psn come 2 us wit a wound tellin us he jus fell dwn.. wen i saw the wound is a bit weird tt is the wound is clean le. so i ask him wad time tt psn fell dwn.. u noe wad?! the psn sae abt 4 hrs ago!!! he jus come here jus 2 check whether do we nid 2 do sth abt it.. i was lyk stare at blank 4 awhile b4 i clean the wound.. jus weird lo haha..

2 dae my teacher called mi n ask mi 2 go 4 a interview for paramedic course.. long dream of it... hopefully i kan get into it cos i heard tt the course onli left 3 more space leh haha.. bery scary.. haha

nw even is the last day of alot of corp having camp, i m still so emo tt i kant go 4 any of the camp... nt bcos i kant go, bt is ppl dun wan mi 2 go haha.. tings are getting frm bad to worst bt..

i will tink of the quote; (don't cry because its over, smile because it happen)=)....
i gt it frm a psn frm NTU wearing the shirt with tis ting on it.. i duno y i lyk it so i took it haha..... thanks to the psn tt wore it on tt dae...

i will blog again after i interview.. haha

Dead and Gone

2009-03-15T19:53:00.000+08:00

Justin：
oooh,I've been travelin on this road too long,
Just tryin find my way back home,
The old me's dead and gone,
Dead and Gone,
oooh,I've been travelin on this road too long,
Just tryin find my way back home,
The old me's dead and gone,
Dead and Gone

T.I. ：
Every had one of them days wish you would have stayed home,
Run into a group of niggas who gettin their hate on,
You walk by - they get wrong,
You reply then shit get blown,
Way out of proportion way bad discussion,
Just you against them pick one then rush them,
Figure you get jumped here thats next,
They don't wanna stop there now they bustin,
Now you gushin ambulance rushin,
You to the hospital with a bad concusion,
Plus you hit four times but it hit yo spine,
Paralyzed waist down and ya wheelchair bound,
Never mind that now you lucky to be alive,
Just thinkin it all started fussin wit three guys,
Nigga pride in the way but your pride is the way you can f**k
around get shot down anyday,
Niggas die everyday,
All little bullshit, dope money, dice games, for their hood shit,
Could this be cuz of hip-hop music,
Or did the ones with the good sense not use it,
Usually niggas don't know what to do
when they back against the wall,
So they just start shootin,
For red or for blue or for blow I guess,
From Bankhead at the old projects,
No more stress now I'm straight,
Now I get it now I take
time to think before I make mistake just for myfamily stake,
That part of me left yesterday
The harder me is strong today,
No regrets I'm blessed to say the old me dead and gon away

Justin:
oooh,I've been travelin on this road too long,
Just tryin find my way back home,
The old me's dead and gone,
Dead and Gone,
oooh,I've been travelin on this road too long,
Just tryin find my way back home,
The old me's dead and gone,
Dead and Gone

T.I.
I ain't neva been scared I live through tragic,
Situations could been dead lookin back at it,
Most of that shit didn't even have to happen,
But you think about it when you out there trappin',
In the appartments hangin', smokin and rappin,
Niggas start shit next thing we know we cappin,
Get locked up then didn't even get mad,
Now I think about that what a life I had,
Most of that shit look back just laugh,
Some shit still look back get sad,
Thinkin my home boy still be around had I not hit the nigga in the mouth that time,
I won that fight I lost that war,
I could still see my nigga walkin out that door,
Who would of thought I'd never see Philant no more,
Got enough dead homies I don't want no more,
Cuz a nigga his jump cost me more,
I'd a took that ass whoppin out for sure,
Now think before I risk my life,
Take them chances to get my stripes,
A nigga put his hands on me alright,
Otherwise stand there talk shit all night,
Cuz I hit you and you sue me,
I shoot you get locked up poor me,
No more stress now I'm straight,
Now I get it now I take time to think
before I make mistake just for my family stake,
That part of me left yesterday
The harder me is strong today,
No regrets I'm blessed to say the old me dead and gon away
oooh,I've been travelin on this road too long,

Justin:
Just tryin find my way back home,
The old me's dead and gone,
Dead and Gone,
oooh,I've been travelin on this road too long,
Just tryin find my way back home,
The old me's dead and gone,
Dead and Gone
I turn my head to the east
I see nobody by my side,
I turn my head to the west
still nobody in sight,
So I turn my head to the north
swallow that pill and think alright,
That old me dead and gone
what that mean I'm gon be alright,
I turn my head to the east
I see nobody by my side,
I turn my head to the west
still nobody in sight,
So I turn my head to the north
swallow that pill and think alright,
That old me dead and gone
what that mean I'm gon be alright,
oooh,I've been travelin on this road too long,
Just tryin find my way back home,
The old me's dead and gone,
Dead and Gone,
oooh,I've been travelin on this road too long,
Just tryin find my way back home,
The old me's dead and gone,
Dead and Gone

wow...

2009-03-08T10:27:00.002+08:00

is a long time since i blog again.. i notice i m lazy 2 blog and nw daes i jus slpin haha

do u all noe wad actualli happen the whole week? 1 of my patient went home.. the patient is so nice bt then i forget 2 sae good buy 2 him cos wen he go, i wen 4 briefing wit my lecturer..

the week is lyk the same old ting tt is work n slp... bt then everytime wen i wake up... i kept on tinkin of sum 1.. kao he wen germany... i ask him 2 send mi a bloody email wen he reach there, bt he nv... i tink he is too forget wad is he doin there.. cos b4 he wen there he tld mi there is a lady 2 fetch him frm the airport there, he is so excitied...haiz. gals again... lol

the nxt ting is tt i m so emo abt sth stupid.. cos abt my corp again.. stupid.. i over sth stupid. which if last time i would make sure the psn would get a hell out of mi haha.. bt times have change ppl sae i kant do it as i tone dwn? which i dun even lyk it? haha. times have change uniform group doesnt look lyk a uniform group.. is jus look lyk a place tt we as n officer mus provide customer service provider..
i m lyk come on la.. we r a volunteer, we r here 2 help n nt 2 listen 2 them.. i mean.. we r train 2 b lyk wad we r n we r used 2 b treated tt way. n we tink tt the old method we use would boosted the cadet.. n we actualli did tt 2 my ambulance cadet. saying tt they kant make it 4 the compitition, bt then eventualli gt 2nd frm almost 10 sckool in the comp... haiz... tings have change haha.

sth gd happen ytd... cos i promoted.. haha i m sayin it 2 myself. cos no 1 in the corp would care if i m promoted or no... hais no 1 would understand wad is the real reason accept marc, emerson.. no 1 would noe wad r we officer doin.. congrats 2 marc, dom, masha and william, grade 5ssssss... haha. nw i m even wrost.. would i go for the camp wit my full u in grade 6 or 5? or would i even go for the camp?
Any ppl out there, pls tag if u kan n give mi sum good ideas... haha thanks..

i will try blog again asap.. sori n thanks..

I Wanted You...

2009-02-09T23:57:00.000+08:00

Lately I've been thinking 'bout wat i can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way
I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me I, I am sorry I.. I am sorry I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done I just can't do this anymore
Cause we can't be mended
So let's stop pretending now
We've been walking round in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me I, I am sorry I.. I am sorry I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you, yeah

I, I I'm so sorry baby but
I, I I've got to pack up and leave but
I, I'll always remember how we came close to be
And what I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
Oooooh Yeahh
I wanted you
I wanted, I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall (I wanted you to be there, yeahhh)
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love (Ooh ooh)
I wanted you, I wanted you (I wanted you oh)
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need (I wanted you to know me just how down deep yeah)
I wanted you to know just how down deep (I wanted you to know just how)
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you
I.. I wanted you, I wanted you

....

2009-02-06T16:38:00.001+08:00

i kant believe i have done nite shift 4 2daes without slping haha... is a nice nite shift in hospital.. nt much kall bell.. haha is jus tt the place is so quite until is so difficurt to past the time haha... and 2 dae, i m having holidae haha..

heard tt tml is the cca promotion interview... hahah hope they will all pass the interview tml haha.. be it any corp

i kant believe tt there is ppl which read my blog.. n then tot i m saying abt sum ppl in my own corp cca haha.. and post it in msn haha.... PLS i gt nt much tings 2 do or sae 2 my own corp... i onli will pass dwn the information frm my chairman then i will pass to the corp. onli go den wen there is a nid or wen i m free..

so tough to b an officer haha.. i duno hw 2 sae the bad news to my corp abt every trainin mus in full unifrom. it has been pass it down by my corp management chairman.. it is done in every corp starting frm the tis yr.. i jus gt the information last sat frm grade 3 officer..... n there is alot of tings which is bad still nida tell.. haiz.. fan ah.. haha duno whether tml wana go dwn hq anot haha so manytings 2 do, so little time.. so near yet so far.... hopefully they will noe wad is goin on n noe tt i dint do anyting wrong 4 the past 5 months

2 nite i will try 2 post again lo.. so cya guys ltr haha...

2009-01-28T23:40:00.004+08:00

this few weeks i wont be posting due to my attachment's working time, but today i wanted clear something. whether did the person see this post or not, as long as there's ppl that knows what am i doing, i'm ok with it already.

i dont know why, nowadays i just feel that there's someone thats angry with me... i know who you are, but the thing is that i dont know what is going on.... maybe i said something wrong... or maybe i did something wrong... maybe i never declare something to you which is... if a person wants to tell me secrets, if i think there's a good way to solve or help out that person's problem, i'll risk disclosing some of the facts that i think will benefit, and i don't mind the person for hating me... because in the long run, it might be helpful for the person...

if there's anything that offend u and u decide not to forgive me, im okay with it. the only thing i can say is i'm really sorry. that's all... =/

if you know who i am talking about, then please understand what i'm trying to do...

quite a unlucky day

2009-01-20T22:44:00.002+08:00

is a new dae new enviroment in there haha.. things are suite smooth here and there.. the ward is quite fun.. filled with alot of students.. akot of them haha.. staff oso alot haha. so it turns out 2 bt tt the ward is so bz lyk hell haha..

early in the mornin i saw tt my cp lecturer change my shift tml to morning.. n it turns out tt i nida go there tml by myself haha.. so sian lo...

is quite a normal ward there la haha..

back 2 the unlucky day.. my leg gt an skin tear due 2 pants rudding the same place over and over again... until nw there is still pain and there swelling there...

after the work.. i heard tt the other corp gt comp team trainin.. and the instructor ask mi tt if i wana go dwn n look at it, i jus go lo haha. bt then it turns out tt i tind do anyting accept tokin 2 their instructor.. heard tt 1 of them went bk bt kena kick out again due 2 his dyed hair.. bt then the ting is tt he aready grad frm tt skool le bt y still kant go back? tts quite a stupid ting tt the DM sae lo haha

nwis the ting tt i wana consider myself as quite a unlucky dae is tt i jus gt up, n wen in 2 check my mail.. n found out tt i 4gt 2 do sth.. I 4GT 2 SUMIT MY DOC 2 THE POLY WITIN 3DAYS!!! I M IN DEEP SH*T.. HAHA. tml i will ask my teacher again again till she help mi if nt i will jus have 2 go ns...

i m so unlucky 2 dae.. i jus feel lyk cryin sumtimes.. so physical stress n mentally stress.. my family.. cca ( cos they are my best hobbies n i gt 2 noe alot of gd frends there n 1 committed..) school.. friends...best of all is a psn tt i always tok alot of pbm 2 bt nv tok 2 her due 2 sum pbm.. so stress.. so pain.. so emo....

too much tings 2 do le.. sum 1 help mi if u kan... haha

yos haha.. bk again 19-1-09

2009-01-19T23:59:00.003+08:00

haha.. i m back.. 2 dae were quite a painful day for me man.. early in the mornin i had 2 go all the way to semei for simulation training haha..
quite sian there lo... bt a gd ting 2 see all the new batch of nursing students haha.. alot.. n i kept on tinkin wen i 1st join, m i the same as them? haha..

bt wen i wen back, sth shock mi.. 1 guy frm my sec skool... frm a diff cca.. an officer nw.. shock mi.. HE IS IN NURSING OSO.. kant believe it.. hopefully he will bcum 1 very gd n top nurse haha..

a bad dae 4 mi 2 dae.. so sick.. having headach.. dman pain until wen i takin train hm.. no space for me 2 sit.. plus headach.. thus i stand n doze off at 1 of the corner haha..

as usual mitin nicholas.. tis time jus meet then go hm cos takin same train bk hm.. then i wen hm n he wen hm haha..

and cos of my headach.. i do some nappin n end up wakin up jus nw onli.. haha.. quite a stupid dae for me haha..

tml i m goin for my attachment at NUH haha.. stay tune for tmls... STORY ABT THE WARd.. Muahahahaha... i m siao le haha

18/1/09

2009-01-19T17:41:00.003+08:00

haha yesterday i dint blog cos i m bz outside wit weiliang n nichloas.. we went jurong point... haha so many ppl there lo mostly is indians.. i m nt offending them.. is realli true.. cos i heard tt there are alot factory there, so wen they end work, they will go there 4 a shop.. it bcum a small little india there.. we went there 2 c for new clothes 4 nicholas then weiliang go play arcarde.. we tried 2 kall chia lek 2 come cos weiliang sae she wana come oso.. we kall alot of times bt then dint pick up.. bt wen we abt 2 go off, she kall n sae she is workin... dots rite haha.

bt then we did meet at cck eventualli at nite then went 2 my hse playground n listen 2 songs etc.. jus simply anyhw tok haha.. mb did tok quite alot of my cca stuff ba haha..and went hm again...

yet another boring life.. haha
2 nite i will post 4 2 dae!!!! stay tune!! haha

"Best I Ever Had"-- By 'State Of Shock'

2009-01-18T00:59:00.004+08:00

Now I know I messed up bad
You were the best I ever had
I let you down in the worst way
It hurts me every single day
I'm dying to let you know
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend

So many things I would take back
You were the best I ever had
I don't blame you for hating me
I didn't mean to make you leave
You and I were living like a love song
I feel so bad, I feel so bad that you're gone
Now I know you're the only one that I want
I want you back, I want you

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
You were the best I ever had

We fell in love for a reason
Now you're leaving
And I just want you back
So many things we believed in
Now you're leaving and words won't bring you back
I'll never let go of the heart I broke
You and I were living like a love song
Now I know you're the only one that I want
I want you back, I want you

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
You were the best I ever had

I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were the best I ever had
I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were,You were the best I ever had

date: 17/1/09

2009-01-18T00:35:00.002+08:00

today was quite a normal day... i met nicholas n emerson in the afternoon.. play psp at my hse then wen 2 lot 1 walk ard.. then we wen 2 the arcard then start playin till we siao.. i tink we play almost 2 hr ++. bt then we play car racin, shootin, etc. (bt i win most of it haha) bt there is 1 saying tt i m a bad luck psn haha... ( maybe is 99% true lehz)

Right b4 our last game, shihui arrives leh.... woow (i m lucky to noe a psn which gt all 1 ofr 'N' lvls n is on the news haha) so we wen for dinner. after tt nichloas went hm(ps lol jokin) so we then go mega playground ard cck and tok.. bt sth happen haha.. wen i m nt tinkin of sth sad wen we were walkin to the play ground, i saw sum1 which made mi so sad... so sad... i saw a psn which look so alike to a psn very impt 2 mi ( which nv tok 2 her le) so alike!!!! THEN SHIHUI STARTED TOKIN 2 HER!!!! I KANT BELIEVE IS HER FREN... HAHA.. then i started to emo again haha.... mb at this time i m realli unlucky lyk wad the arcard game says.. haha

at the playground, we met marcus and weiliang and play psp again.. (seems lyk we all have no life.. onli play psp everywhere we go lol) eat ice stick.. so cold haha...
after tt 1 by 1 wen hm.. marcus then shihui then emerson.. then left mi n weiliang.. so we jus left there tokin 2 our personal stuff then went hm... so nice tokin to our own stuff.. haha so nice..

Do you Believe in fate?
if you do.. jus follow it.. and it will come true..
if u dun, use ur own way.. cos it will also come true..
believe in wad you are tinkin and it will come true.. haha

......

2009-01-17T13:52:00.002+08:00

Woa wad a great night yesterday... cos i met all the external cca instructor at cck park. then we play alot of unwanted stuff at the playground. wad do u tink playground is urs 4 wad? we started playing poker.. play songs.. play psp.. tokin etc... alot of tings jus happen that i cant explain.. fun n fun.. lol

then we went to Weiliang hse wit Jia Jie and Chia lek 4 a overnight program... after playing "hotel 626" (somhow it doesnt look so scarly as i tot), we "watch L change the world". bt during that movie show, i started slpin haha. i heard that they sae i m to loud haha.

yesterday was my last day at IMH.. it was quite fun as ii tink we had seen most of the wards there.. it was nt as scary as we tot in the 1st place... and nt as wad you guys tink as if is so dark in it n so scary.. miss that place alot.. hope 1 day i will work there

i cant believe that i still tinkin of my own external cca.. i worry so much bt no 1 noes wad m i doing.. onli Jia Jie and marcus realli noes wad m i tinkin of that school.. doin so much still gt scoldin frm alot of people.. onli wen they earn sth in eg. a compitition.etc, they will notice that "something" which had been appearing around for all the training is existing in their school. i jus cant believe they r so relistic man.. worst come to worst, yesterday 1 of them told mi about sth which i nv wanting them 2 do that b4, bt then accuse mi 4 tt. " if you dun wana go back then jus say, dun sound as if the whole corp is begging you.. wan means wan, dun wan means dun wan" she even claims that the cca is dying.. i duno hw 2 sae tt. in the 1st palce i dint even tell them 2 beg or wad.. they jus keep on comin 2 tell mi 2 go bk.. is lyk wad the hell.. i dint even ask them 2 ask mi back n nw they sae i wan them 2 beg mi go back.. please la if the school deserve us to go back.. we will go back no matter wad.. marcus is a typical example.. i used 2 beg him to go back.. bt he refused to.. now other school ask for help, he jus wen back n jus inform mi that he is goin dwn to other school n tts it.. so now if u sae tt if i dint wana go back, think otherwise.. marcus aready noes hw it takes mi 2 feel the pain everytime wen i wen back.. tts y he dint wen back bt instead help others which deserve help..

lastly i will still sae tt is they deserve us 2 go back, WE WILL GO AND USE WAD EVER MATHOD TO TRAIN U ALL UP!! CLEAR!! and please dun ever sae tings that r nt coming out frm my mouth.. thank you..

wooow!!!

2009-01-16T00:53:00.008+08:00

I just ask someone to help mi create this blog!!!! three cheers for Nicholas ha ha... Oh ya by the way i am quite noob it this thing... So pardon mi for doing somethings wrong here... he he...
so i need to end here cause later i will have m last day in IMH ATTACHMENT!!! yeah!!!! so i will blog later 2 nite...byes..

2009-01-16T00:28:00.001+08:00

testing!~